Archive for May, 2005

i eat liver. and i love it.

we came across this strange and incredible website a while ago and amy just sent me this article for your enjoyment…Bless Me, Blog, for I’ve Sinned
By SARAH BOXER

Online confessors are like flashers. They exhibit themselves anonymously and publicly, with little consideration for you, the audience. Browse some of the confessionals on the Web: grouphug.us (a simple log), notproud.com (organized by deadly sin) or dailyconfession.com (where you can barely find the confessions for all the promotional stuff). You can see for yourself.

One online confessional, though, breaks the mold. At PostSecret, found at postsecret.blogspot.com, the confessions are consistently engaging, original and well told. How come? The Web site gives people simple instructions. Mail your secret anonymously on one side of a 4-by-6-inch postcard that you make yourself. That one constraint is a great sieve. It strains out lazy, impulsive confessors.

For PostSecret, you write, type or paste your secret on a postcard, and then, if you want, decorate the card with drawings or photographs. Next the stamp and then the mailbox. Yes, it’s work to confess. And it should be, if only for the sake of the person who might be listening.

One message says: “I lied” under the word “oath.” Another says, “I deleted the pope’s funeral unwatched off my TiVO to make room for an episode of ‘Survivor.’ ” The postcard picture - a split image, top half funeral, bottom half ‘Survivor’ - captures the moment of sin.

Some secrets cannot be separated from the cards they’re on. One sad little postcard has a lineup of seven 3-cent stamps, each with a picture of a Conestoga wagon on it, plus one 2-cent stamp of a locomotive: “I found these stamps as a child, and I have been waiting all my life to have someone to send them to. I never did have someone.”

The following typed message was pasted onto a card made out of a $50 parking ticket: “I got a parking citation and so did the car next to me. I replaced the ticket on the car next to me with mine. My ticket got paid. And the one I took? I mailed it to PostSecret.” It isn’t so much a confession as a live performance of sin.

PostSecret is simple to navigate. You scroll down to read one postcard after another. There’s little else on the site. O.K., you will occasionally run into little self-congratulatory landmarks: announcements that PostSecret will be onstage in Melbourne, Australia, newspaper clippings from all over the world, scores of compliments from readers. But basically it’s all secrets.

And the secrets are regularly refreshed. Each Sunday, Frank, the keeper of the secrets, posts a new batch straight from his mailbox in Germantown, Md., and removes some old ones from the site. One virtue of the resulting chronological lineup is that you can look for patterns emerging, certain kinds of confessions clumping together. And clump they do.

For instance, the most recent confessions tend to be the most graphically and ethically hip. They look like the work of Barbara Kruger, Damien Hirst or Sophie Calle. “I want to be anorexic,” says one card with a photo of a skeletal woman, “but I can’t stop eating.”

And for some reason many of the secrets posted on May 8 follow a certain form, a confession followed by a coda with a dash more guilt: “I don’t care about recycling. (But I pretend I do.)” “I had sex with strangers for money. And I liked it.” “I hate loving families… Because I don’t have one.”

One odd thing about PostSecret is that there’s a real disconnection between what the confessions are and what the readers think they are. One reader from Texas wrote, “Thank you so much for building a window into so many souls, even if it only shines light on the darkest part.” A reader in Australia wrote: “Each is a silent prayer of hope, love, fear, joy, pain, sorrow, guilt, happiness, hatred, confidence, strength, weakness and a million other things that we all share as human beings… there is no fakeness here.”

No fakeness? Oh, but there is. And it is the fakeness, the artifice and the performance that make this confessional worth peeking at. The secret sharers here aren’t mindless flashers but practiced strippers. They don’t want to get rid of their secrets. They love them. They arrange them. They tend them. They turn them into fetishes. And that’s the secret of PostSecret. It isn’t really a true confessional after all. It is a piece of collaborative art.

i got my secret pal today. i am trying to get my vibe for her. i am going to polish up my questionaire and post it to-morrow.

i spun at work and overdyed some of the more boring yarns. blah. spin spun spang. i have an early dr’s appt, drat. nothing at all to report. i am still really tired. this lupus is so needy. what can ya do? nothing.

my mom called to tell me that my younger brother’s newest comic book is in entertainment weekly’s review section. what? the bitter asshole that i am, i didn’t go get a copy. my parents willask if i did, and i will lie and say yes, i did. they will smile because they know how i wish i could be as wonderful as my brother(s). strangely, i never have and never will. for one thing, they can’t knit. must suck to be them.

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i love post secret.


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sunny sunday


spinning
Originally uploaded by natashafialkov.

man, was i tired last night. it was so nice to have the cats cuddling all over us. pavel was on jake’s head and then anytime he would move he would run to check if he was awake. it was nice. waking up nose to snoot with my awesome family.
at the store in savannah, WILD FIBER, they had all sorts of crazy things, including a really nice selection of yarns from a company in new york called HABU. here is the cincher…they make yarns and fabric out of silk/stainless steel/gold/silver, paper, hemp bark, bamboo…you name it…and they are gorgeous. soft…not like you would imagine…and the strength of a fiber like that makes it even more amazing, the possibilities for fine art works…ooh, i am so excited. combine that with the new book , or simply making some flexible, posable knits….ooh, i am giddy. the husband and wife that owned the shop were both artists, my in-laws were waiting in the car several blocks away, so i didn’t have time to hang out. i forgot to take photos, and it was gorgeous. they are not allowed to say “stitch’n bitch” so they call it a knit in. cute. i got some spinning mags there, some dpns for the hat i was working on, some roving, which was heaven to work with, i think that was all.
i have some ideas for some really cute little sheep ornaments to do whatever with, ala nick parks shaun the sheep.
wow, i am really sleepy still. i am not sure if it is a medication issue, or what, but i have been really out of it.

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i’m baaack!!


jake and i
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to those of you who sent me messages wondering where i am because you missed my blog…oh my god, you are tooo sweet. it makes me feel so special. my in-laws, hubby and i went on vacation to south carolina for a week and we had no ISP at our condo. i had planned to go to starbucks or something to blog, but i ended up being really tired in the evenings. i missed you guys a lot. i even handwrote a blog entry to post later. sad. i have a huge backlog of blogs to catch up on, as well.

well, let’s get to it. my lys on the island was ok…the people were really nice, if not as knowledgeable as i am used to. i got a few projects finished, but not photoed, two shoulderettes for paying customers, $80 a pop, i think i told you about it, i have one more to finish. i also finished butter’s lightweight hat. i spun a ton of yarn. ok, more like half a pound. 4 oz of that was a handpainted roving that was blue faced leichester. little did i know that not only does it look like gorgeous cotton candy, but it feels like heaven. it is so soft and came out gorgeous. i told jake that spinning to me must feel like zipping around on his motorbike does to him. it make my heart jump around in my chest like snoopy doing his dance. jake asked my what i will knit with all the yarn i have been spinning. some of the first really thick and lumpy will probably get wrapped for art peices, i dunno about the rest. it resides in a really cool long skinny basket on the dining room table right now.
we went to a fantastic fiber store called, appropriately enough, “wild fiber”. sorry, no website…i am super tired, so i will finish this to-morrow, we left the house at about 8:30a and got in to greensburg at about 9p. i have been having the exhaustion problems again, and literally slept 80% of the way home, knitting 10 stitches in between naps, i saw double when i attempted to stay awake. anyway, i had a triple latte twice today and still slept and am tired now. i also have a spider bite on the back of my neck that is huge, plus one in the crease of my butt and thigh and one on the front of my thigh. i can feel them all itching for me talking about them. we had a really nice time, butter watched the cats and the house looks cleaner than when we left. it appears that for the first time ever, we came back from vaca and peeps did not poo or pee for retaliation. butter is that awesome. i want to keep talking, there are miles to go before i sleep. i must….ok, first thing to-morrow

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cow lips


sheepish
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so, we leave this afternoon for vaca and i haven’t packed yet. a bunch of my clothes are in the dryer so….anyway, i have to go to work also. i may just do my appt and leave. anyway, i won’t have internet service i don’t think, so i will have to go to bn or somewhere to blog. don’t you worry (you were worried, right? you would miss me, right? i would miss you…) i will do it.
anyway, i spun a bit last night. i have been so exhausted at night that i only can do a bit. i haven’t knitted in days. can you believe it. i feel torn between spinning, knitting and getting art projects finished. i need to make a schedule so that i am more organized and get things done. the shadow boxes are not done, but i did talk to someone about making the irregularly sized ones for me.
man am i sleepy. i better get moving or i will get spanked. ooh yeah. hot hubby, spanking…nah, i always say, “whatcha gonna do, spank me?” he says yeah. he never does. empty promises.
anyway, i will miss my kitties so much, especially at night. but butter is watching them and he will cuddle with them and love them, he is cuddly. but still. peeps will undoubtedly retaliate for us leaving, probably at least one poop on the floor and a couple of peeps. its cool.
ok, i must shower and pack.
smooochies!! i’ll miss you!! and extra hugs and smoochies for my gorgeous sister boo!! mwah! mwah!

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without you, i’m nothing


roving drying
Originally uploaded by natashafialkov.

doesn’t this look like a latin american country.
so, i dyed a ton more stuff today, not pictured. gabe spun some orange and purple stuff and did an awesome job. do i do it right? dunno. i taught gabe the same way though.
otherwise, killer headache. getting ready to go on vaca. i may have to go to barnes and noble or starbucks to blog. i am an addict. without you, i’m nothing.
heidi from my paper crane said she had a babe and it died a year later, i think. so that isn’t a very good deal so kiwi? louet?

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high on dye


my first experiments in dyeing and spinning
Originally uploaded by natashafialkov.

i have inhaled so much kool-aid powder that i have rainbow snot. i will never drink it again, not that i did so often, but that is bad stuff. i dyed a ton of stuff at work, and spun it when i got home. so much fun. also, i saw some reviews that said that the babe wheel was not so great, it was so lightweight that it was hard to use. i think i will just get a kiwi or the louet cheapie. any opinions? i cannot wait. i have a sore hand from spinning. doesn’t stop me though. i am like the lance armstrong of spinning. i don’t care, i will survive.
it makes me so happy though. i haven’t been this exciteable since college. anyway, thank you yarn, for giving me my life back.
i spoke to jason h last night, he was saying that all of this has really consumed me, and i told him, for anyone that knew me 5 years ago, before i got together with he who sucks happiness out of all that are around him, i was constantly making stuff, nonstop. like this, and then when i started tattooing, it didn’t help. it sucked it out of me further. since i have been with jake, he is incredibly supportive of me, and anything i want to do. he is an amazing person. anyway, i hope it doesn’t put people off, all the art mania, but i am so happy. i can’t wait to get up in the morning. i am sad at night when i am too tired to focus anymore on anything.
in other news, i have ambrose’s shoulderette, maribel, at work waiting to be sent to her, to grace her soft milky shoulders…a client saw it and asked how she could get one, i told her i make them for friends and the occasional boutique she asked what it would cost, and i told her $80 and she asked if i could make her one. so i have to bring some yarn in for her to look at today. pretty cool huh? so i may keep a few things at work. terrie from dv8 asked if i wanted to sell anything there, and i guess maybe i should. i get a really strong response. i love it. cats, people, babies. especially cats. good for sleeping on and licking. and nesting on. if you have a high rent cat on your list.
so, i need to stop and pick up some more koolaid today, in some darker blues, the purples and burgandys were nice. it reminds me of the noro i have.
we lave on friday for vaca, so i am starting to get nervous. so much to do. tivo is not working, that is a whole different story, and we cannot deal with it until we get back. also, i need to figure out what projects i want to bring to the beach. there is a really good back in one of the old interweave knits i got for 1 buck at kathie’s. a big shoulder bag. and jason’s hat. no boring boutique scarves.
anyone who spins, let me know your wheel input!!

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yeeehaw!!


sheepish
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so yesterday, i picked up loop-d-loop and it is incredible. page after page of gorgeous photos, wonderful projects, i want to do almost everything in there. the foreward about knitting as art is fantastic. i also got freeform knitting and crochet.

the woman from knots and treadles called me back. she is only there on her days off. she has one louet wheel there, for 300 bucks and she will take payments on it. i asked her about the babe’s wheel and she didn’t like that too much. i dunno. that babe’s wheel is 8 lbs. anyone with any advice, give it to me!! anyway, i decided it was better not to go and spend money, when i have 3 lbs of rovings, not much money, and if i go i may well be late for work. i will probably dye some of this stuff with Kool-aid tonite. yay!!
i woke up in the wee hours of the morn, i vaguely remember this, and had a cup of coffee in my hand, which i had spilled on myself. yup. sleeping, drinking coffee. ok, i need to look up some stuff, and go SPINNNNNNinggg!!

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animules aplenty


ew0604a_small
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this is the wheel i want. i don’t need anything too fancy as of yet. i took a trip with gabe to jamie’s sheep farm and she actually sold me rovings, as well as showing my her wheels and how they work. i may get a louet at a later date, start less expensive. unless i found one really cheap. anyway, we saw all sorts of animules. it was really fun and informative, too. spinners are some really nice peeps. animules!

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looooong night dreaming of roving


purple flower
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not only a headache, but i kept waking up, hoping it was time to call the store, knots and spindles to see what their hours were. we saw them at the sheep festival and i had never heard of them and they are only about 20 minutes away. they don’t have regular hours, so i left a message. aaargh!! i am jonesing like a junky to spin more fiber!! i know i will want a wheel. i hear you can spin paper!! ooooh. anyway, i am going to call my lys to see if they know anyone nearby that may have some. man, this reminds of of the old days, if you know what i mean. they will give me a number of someone who, if they cannot help me, will be able to tell me who can. if knit wits doesn’t know, i could drive to the lady i talked to yesterday, but i am really afraid i won’t get back in time for appointments and will get lost. i am a chicken. the time is the biggest issue. only 27 minutes before i call knitwits. i actually have the cell number of the one woman, and forgot to put it on my phone. so, coffee and then fingers crossed. i asked heather to ask her student, but she never did. sigh. i’ll keep you posted.

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