my(graine) will never leave me
stalker, obsessed, always there, know it or not…all of the pushing
leads to collapse
i’m okay
i’m okay
i’m not okay
holding me down sleeper hold until i really cannot get up
say uncle
give in
watch everything you want to do
people you want to see
disappear in the distance
the wolf
at my side
now calm
she has gotten what she wants
i blink slowly, seductively
sigh…goodnight.
quick. my hubby went to look at my blog, and the post i did half an hour ago is lost. egads. anyway, i spun this in the morning, my first attempt at a drop spindle. i used up the little bit of roving i bought at wool and sheep and went hunting today for more to no avail. i leave friday for vaca and hope i can find something before i leave, even undyed. pleeeeease. are you all proud of me?
so last night i picked up the transylvanian drop spindle jakie got me and gave it a whirl. literally. it flew out of my hands and across the floor. after another different set of directions, i tried it my way, which seemed to work well. i only got 4 or 6 oz of dyed rovings at sheep and whool, they said it would take forever for me to use that up, or, in my case, a night. drats!! i have one sore forearm from spinning. i know i want a wheep. i called a local sheep lady who only had white rovings, which i could dye, but i couldn’t get there in time today and i dunno if i can get there tomorrow, it is a fair drive in the boonies, and i hate going alone to places i am unfamiliar with. maybe heather’s student can get me some…i am addicted, i think. this is the first try. lumpy and bumpy. yay!
i went to kathy’s to return those crap circs and got some sale stuff and some replacement circs. i sas the loop de loop book which looked fabu! i also got some interweave mags from last summer and the one before for a buck each. and yarn for the 3rd attempt at butter’s hat. butter!!
ok, that is really all, just boasting my spinning. if anyone is having problems viewing my blog, please email me and let me know…also let me know if your browser is explorer and you are having trouble. i miss you, sister christine!!
so we had the potluck last night, which was a smashing success. i think everyone had fun, although jenna, jason’s girlfriend, got a really bad migraine. she was really sweet to come out to meet us feeling cruddy to start. being a migrainer myself, i could tell how bad she felt. we also met jake’s boss duane and his wife audra, who were super nice. really fun. everyone else, other than my awesome in-laws, are pictured. my mom in law wore this really bright yellow blazer and heather called her daffodil, which i was concerned would piss her off, but she laughed. my brother and sister in law said they were busy, then called today and told jake that they didn’t do anything. sigh. my senseo was a huge hit, he was busy busy busy, and at the end of the night i baked toll house cookies which everyone loved. 2 dozen, gone. and they are big cookies. all the food was really good. heather helped me clean up and jake conked out. she left around 2:30, i think. i got a message from my mom that someone is trying to get a student loan in my name and used my mom and a family friend as a guarantor. i will call on monday and she what the hell that is all about. my ex has tried to get credit in my name while we were together, as well as many years later, so if it isn’t just a mistake, which it doesn’t seem possible it could be, it is probably him. i would be ok with sending him to jail. bastard.
anyway, i have a whopper of a headache, jake went to get groceries, although we leave for vacation on friday, so we don’t need much. plus we have food left over. ok, i cannot see. i am going. i was supposed to go to jo-jo’s with amy, but i can’t see straight.
all the cats are sleeping and snoring their little kitty snores. cute. and annoying.
oh, also, pavel was a little party animal, trying to eat off of the table, messing with people’s purse’s, hanging out with everyone, then falling asleep on one of the dining room chairs, sitting up, as kittens do. he loves people. the more the better.
ok, i am gonna try to sleep this off.
good to know that someone enjoys my knits. gosh, what a crazy day. 2:30 am, i am allegedly drinking coffee. don’t remember. jake comes back in a bit later, i am asleep with the cup in my hands. hm. 8 am, wake up with crippling headache. am incredibly tired. wake up again at 9, get coffee, exhausted. take a shower, so tired that i don’t go in to work until 1. gabe and i chitchat. i want to go to the thrift store to look for something to use as a display. boutique still hasn’t called. 2 pm, heather comes in, totally wired. 2:30pmish, jen ambrose, one of my bestest friends from college, who i have not seen in ages, and her handsome boy, and i don’t like kids or think they are cute, he is soooooo cute, and good, show up and hang out, whilst i sit outside and paint the frames, still, then sara, butter and simone’s friend hung out with us…then, willis, a longtime friend who i never see stops in. i come home at 5, get ready, go to dinner with my mom and uncle, hubby and dad. he lives in australia, and is in the us for a convention in new orleans. i am trying to encourage him to bring me along as a companion in the future. he goes to posh places. he again told me how much they would like to have us, the live in an amazing house near the beach. oooooh. croooon. i hope we can so i can get to see my aunt and uncle and his girls. my brothers and i grew up sans relatives and i hate that. i hate that i don’t know all the kids. it sucks. i will try to at least email them and try to keep up with their lives.
on the same lines, i hate the fact that i lose touch with my friends, people that i love so much. i don’t see them for a year or more, and it is like no time has passed at all when i see them. and i know that they know how incredibly i think they are. i hope so. i love ya jen! i hope you know it. and my awesome uncle bruce…ok, i’ll shut up now…
oh, also, knitwits called me yesterday to tell me that THE YARN HARLOT will be there signing books and hanging out in june, i will post the specifics and be sending out an email to those of you in my area. if anyone lives further away but wants to come, i could arrange a place to stay for ya. how exciting!!
make sure to check out this link to all the photos from the maryland sheep-a-rama…wooooooool!!!. my camera was at the spa, and i am so jealous of miss plum’s fantastic photos. gorgeous. amazing. she really gets the animules to speak. listen, they say, you would not believe how many dumbasses have tried to touch me…
in other news, my mom went to this fashion show/luncheon/bored rich middle aged women event that the boutique threw and i guess they featured my scarves, they STILL have not returned my call(S) and then invited everyone back to the shop to see the whole collection of my knits. they rave about them and all the richies were freaking, my mom says, she called me at work and when gabe told her i was working on someone, she told him it was URGENT. yup. or not. anyway, i guess she decides that she likes me and tells everyone that she is my mother when they tell her what an amazing ARTIST i am. little do they know. silly women. anyway, i guess it is a good indication that they will sell. probably the more expensive the better. it will seem worth more to them. i want to work on a a display rack to-morrow. hm. i am sleepy. my pain patch is kicking my pain’s ass and my ass, too. sleeeepy. woo! over and out. and out. and out.
so, i woke up super early to finish lelah. she was no longer lelah, but in a jekyl and hyde moment had morphed into laylahndaa, her very obese and trashy stepsister. i didn’t want to do the elastic, i planned to put on straps. my boobs are too big to play that game, so i added another row of eyelets at the top, to put another ribbon thru. also, i decided to do the top half in that incredibly soft organic cotton from blue sky alpacas. do you see where this may be going? they should not make cotton. this is the SAME cotton i tried to make butter’s hat out of that could fit the jolly green giant. i didn’t learn. it looked big, when i block it, i thought, i will adjust. it will. nope. it is fine on the bottom and even though i used smaller needles and decreased, it is substantially huger on top. i even went to the lengths of putting ribbon through it to see if that would work. it is too big to wear as a skirt. how about that. so, i will rip out that cotton, and anyone who wants it, drop me an email, the farther away the better. i don’t even like the color of the top. i think you cannot make anything you want to wear out of it. a blankie would work. but at $12 per 130 yd. i am so irritated. i should maybe put this aside for a bit. i have been proudly showing it when anyone asks what i am making, it is the most complex thing i have ever made, after knitting half of it twice, i will now knit the other half twice. sigh.
also, my dr increased my pain patch and i feel high. not in a good way. sleepy and out of it. i hope he will adjust it back down. zzzzzzzzz.
also, i cannot locate my phone since yesterday. i washed the car after my hairappt, which was uneventful, amy, ask me about the gossip, though, and when i went to use the vaccuum, i got the one that doesn’t work with my last 75 cents. i may have said that yesterday. anyway, i hope i didn’t leave my phone there. oooh. maybe it is just in my car. i think i am going to get up and go to marshall’s and blow this credit slip/card that my mom gave me. although i am feeling large at the moment.
oooh. pooped as usual. i want to stay home and knit. or work on the frames at work. i told butter i would work on him, though. he kept texting me last night because he was lonely, and i was too tired.
i wanted to keep knitting lelah last night, it looks super cool with the different color top, it is all knitting now. i will finish it today.
also, i called the jm’s boutique, again. i called thurs and fri after dropping the stuff off on wed and said, hey i am going to this yarnapalooza, let me know if you want me to pick anything up, they called sat afternoon. anyway, i said to please call back, let me know what she liked and wanted me to make and when. no one called. i called today, was spoken to like a moron, she said she would,”TRY to remember to give janie the message…” needless to say, no call back. i think it may be best to just settle up, and walk away.
hm. so i got some metallic paint things, i will post the name later, and worked on some of the frames i got for the knitting. it was really fun. i sat outside and worked on them. i had on overalls and a tank top. i managed to get a sunburn on my lovehandles, arms, neck, shoulders. it itches. oh and my face too. and i have felt hot all night. it took a while to realize that was why. sigh. gabe and i had fun though.
i am tattooing butter to-morrow, which will be fun, as always.
jake is still sick, he has been on antibiotics since friday, and is super tired. i hope he feels better soon. it sucks to be sick. that is really all. i will post some of the boxes to-morrow for some input.
ah headache.
oh, the lace part of lelah is done, i am doing the top of her in an organic cotton undyed. i was afraid i would be a tiny bit under in yarn if i did the whole thing blue, so after the eyelets, i switched to the cotton. it should be done to-morrow, you’ll see. here’s to hoping it fits.
