luxe

i spent the last 4 hours clearing my studio and yelling at heather/crying with heather. i swear we are sisters. i get so pissed off at her because i care about her so much and want her to be ok. and then, she will tell me something about someone else, and manage to shift my attention to want to kick someone else’s ass altogether. whatever. anyway, i got my closet straightened out and much of the studio sorted as well. i need to get some smaller baskets, big time. i may paint to-morrow. i can picture the pink in my head. old and flat. eggshell. i am excited. oooooh. this way, everything just gets moved in and put away. i threw tons of stuff away. like a fax machine that i can’t work because we don’t have a phone line. so, that can move.

people keep saying how sad it is to see the shop go, it is a shame, they tell me. no, it isn’t. i am so happy. i feel so free. since i made this decision strange coincidences abound, info on calls for artists, for dolls, for fiber pieces, for craft shows, all sorts of things…that i couldn’t do before, i didn’t even realize i was limited. shit, i could take come fiber classes at my alma mater if i wanted to…or whatever. i could teach knitting, or spinning…i feel so free. between the bills and the thought of my brandy new gorgeous studio, i get giddy…

i won’t blather on about it, but i am really happy, and i emailed heidi from my paper crane to see if we could maybe carpool to some of the farther away shows! fun!

i am off to read EVA LUNA, a really compelling read. i have been so excited that i don’t even want to eat! yay! eating disorder anyone? at least i am not bulimic like my cat, kahlo. and her sister, peeps, eats whatever she wants and is slim, yet fluffy. damn her! if i had a sister, i would really hope i was the prettier one. i could not bear being the homelier one.

oh, also, there is this really fun site phantom professor which helps us to be better blog writers. it has vocab and all sorts of fun info and you just grade your own. check in daily. really really neat! i know i am not the best writer…i am an artiste! dammit! i cannot be all things….giggle…but i like to try to be as good as i can at everything i can…

sweet dreams…i have realized that things better than what you have dreamed of can come true…like magic!!

you are the best…yes, you…
mwwwwah!
n.