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let me preface this blog by saying that anyone who doesn’t want to hear moaning and groaning may want to skip today’s post.

that said…my feet have been hurting. enough that i think i limp. how attractive, huh? in addition, i have some sort of eye infection that makes me feel like i have a sinus infection. which is what i thought it was. since last night, it has started to really really hurt. i can’t see very well and i feel like i have a migraine. my foot is the equivalent of foot carpal tunnel. did you know that there was such a thing? tarsal tunnel. dammit! so, before going to my dr’s appt, i watched a few minutes of dr phil, who was in new orleans, and i felt so bummed out, that i cried.

it gets better, briefly. tearfully, i leave for my appt, and my awesome wonderful fantastic secret pal has sent me a kind and sweet and inspiring card, on a day that i feel really scared and worried about everything, and send me the very yarns i was looking at from habu, i wonderful japanese yarn company that makes very unusual things stainless steel and silk? yes. paper and silk? yes, yes! and they were instrumental in making me want to learn to spin. the japanese fiber artists, where actually it is considered art, can you believe it? are so amazing. if i had been into fiber when i was younger, i would have studied in london or japan. they have wonderful things there. anyway, that is what i got, and while feeling really depressed, i felt really grateful, and felt connected to humanity in a way other than feeling helpless. in a way other than realizing that loads of people would be happy to have a wonderful house, friends and family that are safe, pets who are warm and fed…and have lupus. or a stupid sore foot and an eye infection. you know? i am going to donate more yarn and scarves to crafter’s united. i would really like to give some money to the humane society out there, as well. i cannot even think about that disaster. ok, enough. i promise.

so where i was going with this, is my secret pal, erin, who is a high school english teacher who seems to be very into teaching, which is so fantastic. many days that i felt really cruddy or sad, i got either and email, a card, or a package from her that made me smile. i know everyone says that their secret pal is great (well,except for my secret dork pal who never responded to emails or let me know that she got the package) but it has inspired me to do sp6, as well as a pittsburgh one, and to try to live up to the standard that she has set. i have a gaggle of people that i owe handspun to, and she is on that list. so i swear i will.

my stuff on etsy has had lots of looks, but no buys, it has only been not quite 48 hrs, yet i feel really alarmed. what if no one thinks it is as amazing as i do. maybe i have a really big head, which may be shrinking soon…i guess we will see. i can’t find anyone to do a website for me and the people i have contacted don’t reply to me. which is not a good sign, right off the bat, no?

ok, my eyes are really throbbing and i am sweating. i am going to do non-eye-related things. whatever that is. having a book read to me. not cool.

i swear, i will be my excited self to-morrow. i have an hour crochet lesson from eileen, my amazing spinning teacher and am planning to ask the yarn store if they want to carry any handspun. we will see. the pittsburgh crafty show is coming up in a couple of months, and i imagine i will sell ok there, but you know. i feel broke and stressed. i am broke and stressed, i mean.

byeya,
sniff.
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