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fiber friday oct 14th
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well. i was super tired again. amy came over for a bit and i was baaad company (like a sheep), yawning and sniffing. so she left, i was supposed to go to a goodbye dinner pretty much as soon as jakie came home. so, we got there and it was nice and then it wasn’t. i will leave it at that. i was crying, said a rushed goodbyes and ran out. it is a good thing that i wore my green 4 inch heeled boots. i at least felt like that may have taken the attention away from my blubbering as i ran out of the restaurant. wait, didn’t i tell you it was at a restaurant? yeah, nice, eh. anyway, i will leave it at that. i sobbed in the shower, really the best place for it, all things considered, snot and tears, etc. you know? it feels so right to cry in the shower. or bath. whichever. so, i first i had that strange emptiness that feels sort of like hunger, and now the headache. and i didn’t have it for a bit. maybe this is just a freak out headache and it will go away. i am ok. i am. ok. i am. am i? i am. i am! ok?

in knitting news, i decided to make something other than a hat, and for myself. i somehow missed the fact that the ballet t from loopdloop was knitted on fatty needles, and when i realized that, from someone else’s blog, i thought i could dig around in my stash and make it. it is like a simple tivoli. i should have done that first, instead of spending all that time and a not perfect tivoli. so, instead of the recommended yarn, i am using some koolwool in an olive green that i got way on sale at jojo’s a long time ago. planned to make baby stuff. and then, of course that will not be enough for the pattern, so i will then use some really dark green berrocco stuff that i swear is exactly the same, just 3 times as expensive for the bottom. unless i find more of that other stuff. if it comes out cute, i may make another. so far it is easy and fun to do. thanks grumps! it wouldn’t be if it weren’t for you! i would like to experiment with some other tops to wear as layered pieces. i wish i could sew! lordy! and not just sew, but be super good. you all know that i am not into being crappy or mediocre at stuff. although, i see other peeps that have knitted as long as me and are total rockstars. i feel like i can do most things that i tackle, not socks, i can turn the heel but not attach it to the rest of the damn sock. and i have too much to do to mess with socks at the mo. although i think it would be an awesome christmas gift for lots of peep that i love. how many people have had socks made exactly for them? not many. not me, anyway. but they would have to keep telling me how awesome they are. over and over. i am like that. it’s good, right? really good, or just good? better than usual right? you love em? super duper? i make stuff for people and in most cases, it disappears. you know? although, amy wore a scarf i gave her, and it looked gorgeous and also was knitting up the yarn she dyed and i spun for her. she even added another yarn to it! so fancy! that amy, she is a little craftster. yes she is!

also, i had a pattern from a book for a stuffed animule, i altered it and wanted to make it a cat and felted some thrift sweaters and cut them out and sewed them and first, the head looks like a peanut…a peanut version of piglet with a giant body. and i didn’t write the damn pattern! so i need to make a different head, that doesn’t look like a mongoloid. i think it may be cute though. the sweater idea could work out nicely. and i saved all the bits for spinning camp, which i finally paid for…JACEY! i just need my list of stuff that i need to dye before i go. i am taking the train, which is faster than driving, so that will be cool. i think i said that already.

ok…i am drained, but now, additionally, my heart has been kind of crumpled up, and i start to wonder, how much does it ever repair itself? or does it just get kind of used to working that way, all dinged up. when i came home, i got loads of jakie love and loads of kitty love. they don’t see me in a state like that often (anymore) and mew and rub and worry. i so appreciate the love. and all of your love, too. it makes you interesting, you know? like the phantom of the opera. or freddy kruger. right? or like seal…

p.s. anyone have a ringside cd or tom mcrae? anyone? boo?

pps. i apologize for the lack of contests lately, i have been a bit overwhelmed. i am hoping to make some stuff for the sampler and am open to suggestions. winning suggestions will get one of those items. how’s that? aw yeah! it could be a little embroidered or sewn doll or toy or pincuision, or something with yarn, or whatever. i like functional stuff that is cute, so people keep em around, you know?

ppps i got this urineoff spray stuff that doesn’t smell really like anything, but eats the stuff that makes up pee…cat pee or otherwise, and i think most organic substances, and i put it in the places that are stinky and everyone but me said that they think it smells good. i think it smells better for sure, but i smell it everywhere at this stage in my life, you know? but they say it can take a couple of weeks to really finish eating the stuff, so it is working full time. and it doesn’t smell gross. it was expensive though, but i love peeps. she is a force to be reckoned with and i relate to her. i know i have said this before…but she is so think skinned, yet so bad and quick to pay you back or whatever and she is always hurt. really really hurt. jealous…just like me. but inside. she is the most kind, loyal, loving animal. she love me so muchi cann’ttype aynmore, medicaine tells me to sleep now. and tomorrow i will be amazing. again. i have taken a step away from another had oart of me

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