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why couldn’t i be han solo? is that even an option? dunno. when i was a kid, like less than 5, oh my, i thought han was so hot. he had those thigh holsters and that bad attitude! oooh! my preschool self could not bear it. oooh my! who else? well, the fonz of course. he could hit the jukebox and it played…and mork. ooooh more. i was a really strange little girl, i think. i wanted to be an artist, and a singer, like marie, as in donnie and marie. i was in bands, etc when i was in highschool and into college, and actually, my high school art teacher told my mom that i should pursue music because i sucked at art. amazing, huh? and she was a hippy who painted her house to look like the inside of a pirate ship, portholes and mermaids. she was a loony and still said something like that. and frankly, i think my stuff was maybe a bit strange and morbid, but it wasn’t bad for a teenager. what did she want from me? and as you all see, i didn’t end up in a career that had anything to do with art. not tattooing, not fine art, not anything like that. you see? i am a financial analyst. she was totally right. and my nerves are so bad, i was so horrible in bands, i got so stressed before any sort of performance that i would think i was going to puke all over myself. and then by fine when it was over. and it never got better. i have nerves of noodle. you know?

so. today, we were supposed to go to the in-laws for a bit. i was so tired that jake went without me. i had a coffee and woke up a bit and spun two skeins! really pretty, i will post em to-morrow, the batteries are dead in the camera…one is spun from dyed locks, and it is gorgeous. i would love to knit it up, maybe i can make a scarf to sell at handmade arcade? anyway…i tried to prep more fiber but was too tired to stand there and work the carder. i get dizzy and sweaty. egads. but i felt really good that i got some spinning done. also, i dropped hats off at the kids boutique, but bobbie wasn’t there…did i tell you that already? she had only sold one of the other hats, so i dunno how well they will go. and i fear having a ton of hats to do nothing with. i will give everyone little kids’ hats for xmas. and birthdays. hey amy! got you 3 baby hats for your bday. yeah! at least i could afford that. you know?

i looked around for some display stuff for handmade arcade and found some cool things on ebay. i am not sure how to display the yarn to get the most bang for my buck. i know last year it was so crowded that it is really hard to see what is on the table. i found a life-sized wire dress form. when i have cash, i must get it. also, a hat display that is wire. pretty cool.

i frogged the ballet top. did i say that already? my memory. ah. anyway, all the stitch markers moved on account of the loose stitches and everything was off. and i didn’t like the yarn either. so i may get something else that looks more industrial and make it yet again.

i have decided that i am going to need to trade my wheel up for something that fits my needs better. my wheel makes my legs and feet hurt among other things. i had no way of knowing that i would spin for hours at a time and had i known more about wheels and what is what, i would have chosen differently. but what can you do? i am thinking of getting a country spinner, bad name, yes, from ashford, because it has a gigantic orifice, that sounds so gross, and has giant bobbins that hold up to….2 lbs!!! of yarn and has multiple speeds and is double treadle. the other ashfords are convertible also, but if anyone has any advice for me, let me know. i found a place that may let me trade up and pay the difference. and that would be the best case scenario. i just need to find out if this wheel is not good for anything else or something and i will screw myself again. it may be a wheel for one of those lucky gals who get to have a bunch of wheels. you know? did i say 2 lbs of yarn? whoah! badass! although i would like a traveller, so i could put it in a big bag.

ok. i didn’t nap today, although i felt really tired and had a headache most of the day. jake is super exhausted and my stomach has been in bad shape, so maybe this is the flu? i hope. ok. i think that is really all.

oh, lastly, my friend is splitting from her husband. it is overdue. she has been living a life that makes her unhappy, she is a very smart literate social person and he is more into partying and watching sports. not that one is better than the other. well, i don’t really believe that, but anyway, when i met her, we had an instant connection, like i always wanted to have with a friend when i was a girl, and we have had a bond ever since. i realize that i was oddly jealous and overly protective with her and other people, my friend gabe, who she wanted to hang out with and i went psycho on her i got so mad. i realize in retrospect that i was being possessive of both of them. i hate that i am like that at all. thankfully my husband goes out of his way not to ever make me jealous, cause i am psycho. anyway, i know that this will be the making of her. she will get to do things she has always wanted to do. be what she has always wanted to be. she was always a bit embarrassed but tried to act like she wasn’t when she had to watch football and wasn’t allowed to talk during the game, etc. anyway, she asked if i would take a trip with her, and i would go anywhere, if i can afford it anyway, but, she doesn’t read blogs, so this is wasted…but heather…i looove you dearly, you are my soul sister and this will be great for you. i promise.

i must get caught up on emails…forgive me if i owe you a package or an email or a phonecall. i only have a small amount of energy. i am doing my best.

thanks for your comments and concern everyone. it makes me feel really good.
xo
n.