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sigh. i did. just sigh, i mean. firstly, when reading my girl mango’s blog, inadvertently got tagged! and you just did too!!! ah ha ha ha ha! so…15 nice things in no special order….um…
1.spooning with jake when it is cold out and early morning and the blankets are heavy.
2. snuggling with the kitties early in the morning, i like it when kahlo lays on my pillow and i put my head on her and she purrs.
3.morning coffee in bed.
4. being in my studio making things with the sun streaming through the window listening to the dandy warhols. cats sticking their arms under the door.
5….more to-morrow maybe…

otherwise, not much. finally sent my cash for pluckyfluff, after finding out that the train is faster than driving and pretty cheap too. and i can sleep or whatever. so not too bad.

what did i do? nothing. i ran some errands and was so tired afterward that i had to fight to not take a nap. then i don’t sleep at all. so yeah.

i am the lamest. lame-o.

better to-morrow! in fact, i will do whatever, 10 cups of coffee. i am supposed to hook up with gabe to do some art stuff. so if he calls we will do that. he has now sold 11 pieces from his show that didn’t open yet. insane!!

out…
n.

i had a minor freak out late last night. i took the non-freakout pill and took and bath and got my head back together. i have been so fatigued..all the time, really, that i can’t spin or prep fiber. i start sweating and get dizzy and…well, i go lay down and try to at least get knitting done. let’s hope i can actually sell the hats. i have a million. not a million, but a lot. i made a few headband earwarmer thingys that i will put ears on as well. cute!

so, it was my papa-in-law’s (mama-in-law would chuckle at that) birthday supper tonight. i set out to go…they were running late so i stopped at joann’s to get the stuff that i needed to make dolls, etc, and got disoriented as to what i needed and started sweating and put my basket down and left. at least i didn’t walk out and inadvertently shoplift. so i headed home. do i get points for attempting to come? so i went home, checked my email and i had sold some yarn on my etsy store i need to put more stuff up on there. not too shabby, eh?

ok, before i go, i know this sucks, i am all zoned out and tired…did i not tell you that christian on nip/tuck didn’t do it? i feel so bad for him that no one stuck up for him. poor guy, and then his mom showing up? that cop really was begging to get hacked up. i think that the carver was standing up for his bitch, christian. that was low. i wonder who it is? any ideas? anyone? and who here watches general hospital? it has gotten so good. i talk to the tv when i watch it. i have watched it since i was in 3rd grade. i love it.

oh, lastly, i got a slip from the bank saying that the snooty boutique that i sold scarves to, bounced the check!! it cleared a week later…but if you saw how snooty they were to me. man! and they didn’t even call me to warn me or apologize. it happened more than a week ago, so they know. not very classy. god knows, i call before i bounce 8 checks. or after. whatever. no. normally, i only do that once a year or so. i don’t want the bank to go out of business, you know?

ok…photos of cool stuff to-morrow. i swear it!
smooch. or something.
n.

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i just thought it was really funny. i got this from mecozy cute? gross? dunno.

i sold a scarf on etsy, to someone getting it for a girlfriend’s birthday! how nice! i asked if he wanted me to add a card…i would love to make it all fancy and put that obnoxious shredded tissue and confetti! yay! so whilst i was laying around with cramps all day long, knitting and trying to figure out patterns, etc, it really cheered me up. also, i asked for test knitters and had a ton of responses. you people are so nice. so nice.

i made a few hats, including a really strange one, sewn out of a short unfinished scarf. it is odd. i will post it to-morrow. i am working on another, knitted straight, like a scarf and then sewn. i am not sure how to do it and my drawings are not helping. at all. although i did some cute ones of pavel sleeping. which doesn’t help withe the hat. but it cute.

i wanted to run to jo ann’s for some stuff and jake had taken both car keys with him, so i couldn’t leave. in fairness, i didn’t think i would go anywhere. ah well. he went to a rollins spoken word tonite, that i was supposed to go to, but my cramps etc made it seem like a better idea to stay home.

i made some rice crispy treats in the microwave, which is way easier than the stove, as you just spray a bowl with pam and it worked really well.

i tried to watch “left behind” on the christian channel with kirk cameron, he is an alien i think. you know what? i have been left behind before. at least this time i could feel like i had some choice in the matter. buddha wouldn’t leave me behind. would he?

also, i am still having nightmares. every night. they are mainly about my ex, or my family. last night, my ex, as usual was holding me hostage in a car, but forever, and butter was there and had a knife and slashed his throat and the back of his neck, which i warned him not to do, because he can’t die, not that way, anyway, and he just had a gaping hole, but was fine. just really pissed off. so i wonder, what does this mean? it is very representative of how i felt then, and how i have felt in much of my life, trapped, with no way to escape, no one can help me, even if they wanted to…what does this mean? anyone? i haven’t seen the man in like 5 years. maybe more than that even. i saw his brother at the grocery store last week, but i don’t think that is it. hm.

oh! my logos are pretty much done. really cute. i dig em. i will be posting two for you to help me pick…and…any advice on what else it should say on the card? a slogan? help me peeps! well, peeps would, but she can’t talk that well. she is a cat, after all.

my ovary is throbbing. or my uterus maybe. it is on the left whatever the wretched thing is.

ok, so tell me what the dreams mean and what my slogan should be. the one i will stand on street corners shouting. ok? and the winner, will get something. i still have no name for my drumcarder, so that is still up for grabs also.

lovey dovey smoochie woochies.
n.

a kind friend of mine emailed me the link for this new online knitting mag… it is cute.

i finished a hat and added felt leaves on it and embroidered them, it is super cute. i will do some more different ones. i need to take some photos.

super tired all day, so i did nothing but knit. i got up and started to prep fiber, but i felt so awful that i went and lay down, instead.

jake realized that he had given me decaf coffee instead of regular and thought that was the problem. nah. a little caffeine doesn’t help me that much.

i wanted to try making a stuffed animule and didn’t have enough of the felt i wanted to use, so i was a bit annoyed. and tired.

ok, have a fun weekend!

xo,

n.

so! i have been averaging about 2 or 3 skeins of yarn a day and 1 or 2 hats. not too bad. it takes me longer to prep the fiber, even with the drumcarder than to spin it. i don’t know how i lived without it. spinning is so labor intensive when you are carding by hand. you know? i made some of my favorite yarns today. it is amazing how when you start cranking out lots of stuff, you inadvertently make better and better stuff. when i was carding some fiber i had dyed, i hated it. i thought it would be ugly. and it turned out to be one of my more favorite yarns. pretty cool!
the first two go together, they are merino with sparkle and a bit of baby alpaca…i love the golden one extra! yum! the 3rd one is ramie i think. or maybe soy silk. i really should label this stuff…the last one, i really love, is merino and uncarded soysilk, although i think that the person that sold it to me may have sold me something else altogether. it won’t take dye, so i dunno what it is.

jake and i might meet heather to-morrow to go to ligonier days, a crafty fair thingy…although it is hard to go anywhere that you may possibly want to buy anything cause i am strapped! oop!

AND…diana sent me my logos and they look amazing. i am so excited. i will keep you posted!
have a fun weekend y’all.
n.

hey! i broke 10,000. ten thousand! you really really like me. hoooray!

also, the blog post from yesterday…i didn’t remember posting it. to my knowledge, i was asleep. scary. from the strange things i said and the really extra bad spelling, i think i may have been. in fact, i wouldn’t have remembered doing it, except for amy telling me about it. and not even saying that i sounded like i was high. high on pain! yeah! so i apologize for any undue freaky behavior. i have done worse.

fanx!

n.

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oh wait, everyday is migraine thursday. or wed. or tues. you get the jist….

right after i wrote that, i got super tired, closed my computer and fell asleep for 2 hours or so. really. hhmf.

once i woke up, i spun a couple of skeins of yarn and prepped some fiber and started on yet another kitty hat. let’s hope people like em. or i will have a bunch of kid’s kitty hats. i have adult ones, too. when i am awake, i get a decent amount done…but still. photos to-morrow. it will be fiber friday, after all.

also, i got a pattern done for a suffed animal…so i hope to work on that prototype to-morrow.

that is really all…

oh, the photo is from craftster, i thought it was adorable!

xo,
n.

one of those kinds of days. what kind? i dunno. i spun from carded fiber, came out really pretty. you get a million miles from like an ounce. it rocks! then i went and got groceries, and looked at fabric to reupholster my chairs, like usual. i found a few i really liked. i got this slipcover, reupholstering book at a cheapy store and they have an example where the base of the chair is a plain fabric, and the cushions are a pattern, which will look amazing. so i am trying to stay in the pastels, organic. i found a cotton duck that has leaves on it, really pretty. so. and cheap. don’t forget that. also, at the grocery store i got a copy of the new family circle easy knits, and don’t be fooled, few of these are “easy” beginner projects, which is why i never looked at it before. i have outgrown nothing but squares. i can make up a square my damn self. you know? it had some cute things in it, including a pattern by kathy zimmerman, one of my lys’s proprietress’ patterns. she has stuff in interweave knits a lot too, but normally really complex and loose and bulky, so not my bag, really.

nothing else, really. i talked to gabe a bit. his art show up at dv8 has not even opened yet and he has sold 6 pieces so far. in a week maybe. so that is soooo great. i have talked to him about working crafty fairs and etsy…and i feel myself, well meaning, pushing him…do it do it do it. you can do it! i feel this responsibility to help people, but it turns into being really fucking pushy…and i hate it when i am pushed like that. i won’t mention any names here. you can guess.

and there are photos of the drumcarder from all angles…and no more names? is that how it works? so no one wins yarn? that is how it is? i have been thinking about oskar…maybe…shit, i dunno. i need to look online. franz i like. henry still, like rollins. and miller, too. ok…

the headache, you ask? still got her. or him. whatever. i know that if you take meds it can cause a rebound, so i try not to…and it doesn’t help. so what do you do? you know?

does anyone watch nip/tuck? oh my god. oh my god! did i say that out loud? out of control. such an incredible show! and now it seems like there might be a twist to it? i think christian wouldn’t do that, despite being sick and twisted. i am sick and twisted and i would never hurt anyone. despit popular opinion, i guess. i never really think he is an asshole. just like i never really thought brenda (6ftunder)was an asshole, that she did shitty things, but mainly to herself. she got it the worst. and i wonder what the psychological ramifications of the characters and what you think of them are. i hated claire. i thought she was a spoiled asshole. and i thought billy was crazy, but the saddest part to me was that he, like brenda, always would teeter on the edge of destroying themselves, and no one would be there for them, and no one would see any reason. they would just think they were assholes. i hope i am not a bad person. i have always had the undercurrent of being told that i am, and starting to believe it. not being sure if i am or not…and having a keen understanding of destroying the things that are good in my life and making enemies of people who once loved me.

for anyone who didn’t read my personality test, that i posted yesterday, especially if you know a bit about my personal life at the moment, DO! so accurate it is freaky. jake took it, and it was almost as freaky. so dead on. so! YOU MUST TAKE IT…and when you take it…let me know what you think…ok? okey doke!

i have knitted a couple of kitty hats in the last couple of days for the crafty fair, so i must go do that. now. going. going. gone.

over and ooooooooout!
xo
n.

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i totally forgot to say that i got some new books…i got alterknits but leigh radford and it is fantastic! amazing things in there, unlike you have seen anywhere else.

also, i sold yarn on etsy! everytime i sell it, i get so excited. it is my first british customer. yay! i need to put more stuff on there. and i need to start spinning my ass off for the craft fair. and! i need to come up with a couple of pattern for the knit kits. maybe a simple crochet kit, too. sadly, i am too inexperienced at crochet to be making stuff up quite yet! i may just do a baby or adult hat for the kit…and a simple fingerless glove or armwarmer. with handspun bumpy yarn, you really could knit it flat and sew it, so it would be good for beginners. i hat knitting flat if i don’t have to. my seams always look like poo. you know? ok, i need to catch up on blogs.

also, i updated my flickr and labeled and categorized everything thank you very much! i still feel like my flickr is super lame. ah well. we do what we can. no?

and still no name for the drumcarder…he works hard and is rough, but has a big heart? what is his name? c’mon, help a sister out.

nighty night.
n.