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prudence
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so. i dyed fiber most of the day and spun a couple of singles. pretty. i mixed colors by the book, well, give or take and realized that: 1.little barn’s dye’s do not match up with their equivalent 2. what i was told was turquoise is actually black 3.dharma trading co has the dye that i use in bulk for almost the price that i pay for a speck of it. i dye at least once a week and go through dye like nobody’s business. so that was really exciting. is that sad? a bit maybe. well, screw you then! actually went back into my studio to look at my fiber while it is drying. nope, not dry yet.

there has been constant drama with a few of my friends involved. it has been really taking its toll on me. i have had a few asthma attacks and a panic attack and a constant headache. i may end up losing a friend. it looks highly likely. i just cannot handle it. i have been told through much of my life that i am judgmental and critical and that i am mean. it is true, really. but i can’t be close with people that i don’t trust, respect…and that don’t care about that fact, somehow. that is the thing that is the most incredible to me. even though i tell her that i don’t know if i can handle anymore of this, that i may be done, she just sort of changes the subject.

ok. i am super hungry. must. get. snack. mmmmmm.

smoochies,
n.