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our ibook is on her way out, i am sad to say, so that is why i have been absent lately. we will have the new computer to-morrow, so i will be able to update my yarn store then. i apologize for not doing it sooner, but alas, i could not. i have loads of stuff to put up on the store, my website is not ready yet, i am not exactly sure when it will, but check my etsy store for the new christmas yarns. late, as usual.

things have been okay, although i had a strange nightmare that had a creepy fishpond i step out the back door and my friend jg’s brother storing all sorts of crap on top of the pond, and giant fish with big teeth in the pond, and people letting pavel outside, and then he would jump in the pond to get at the fish, maiming one of them, and i had to go in and drag him out because he couldn’t get back out. and it happened over and over again. i guess i know what it is about. one of my closest friends is out of control and i can’t handle it. i don’t want to be critical, if she wants to run wild and put herself in danger, i can’t stop her. i also can’t hear about and wait for something to happen. and then, some of my friends started getting pulled in, close friends, and i just don’t want to deal with it at all. i absorb stress. i get headaches. i get sick. i get depressed. she has a hard time understanding why it upsets me so much. that, in itself upsets me. how can you not understand feeling a sense of responsibility for your friends? isn’t that what friends are for? can i be more vague? maybe.

i made some bread today. it smells so incredible. if i could bottle that smell, i would be rich! rich i tell you!
i better post this before my computer goes out again. pictures to-morrow. i swear it.
miss you so much. thanks for all the kind comments, urging and begging to see the new yarns. it makes it so much more fun for me.

n.