vivienne? maybe. this is my favorite chemo cap, it looks so punky. it looks super cute on, too. so, it goes to show that fun fur has a valuable place in this world. i also have been spinning bits of it into yarns and it looks great there too. i have a soft spot for the stuff.
i spun a lot today, i will skein it and post it probably to-morrow. i dyed the scoured targhee and merino and carded it into some yarn, which looks amazing, but not at all the way i expected it to look. sproingy stuff. big time.
we went to get groceries, and besides being superbowl day it was miserable outside, so it was like a ghost town on the streets.
the other day, i saw a famous violinist on tv who had a stratavarius violin. i researched it a bit and the violin is worth at least 3 million dollars and is one of around 600 in existance left out of the 1100 that the man made in his lifetime. then, i saw instances of a person leaving a borrowed strat on the roof of his car and driving away, and another who had one of about 30 cellos that the man made, invaluable, it was stolen off of his porch by some random person and dumped in the garbage and found and given back to him. if you had something worth that much, would you strap it onto your body with an alarm, or what? so then, jake and i discussed how the musician was able to buy a violin worth that much. do classical violinists make that much money?
my friend that i had the falling out with, let’s call her ursula, called and left a sweet message, checking up on me and saying that she missed and loved me and didn’t know why i didn’t want to talk to her. it made me tear up. i really feel like she is my sister. i have never had a sister, but for good and bad, lots of bad, but it kills me. i really feel like she doesn’t understand why. she thinks i am just being mean. i came very close to calling. i miss her. as much as she drives me nuts, i miss her.
i am watching if only with own of my new faves, jennifer love hewitt, the cutest girl in the world. i also watch ghost whisperer, with no shame. and i cry when i watch it, cause you know by now, i cry really easily. this movie is about an uptight brit and his spunky awesome girlfriend who he takes for granted. they get in a fight, she gets in a cab, gets in a car crash, and he goes nuts. super intense amazing acting, actually this guy loses his shit. and movies like this always make me think about how much we take everything for granted…it is a really sweet movie. he wakes up the next morning and it is the previous day, over again. so he can do it right. it is a chick flick, but it is really sweet.
on the way out of the store today, it was bitterly cold, jake put the groceries in the car and told me to warm it up, as usual, because that is the kind of person he is. anyway, when he got in, even though he was super hungry, i was staring at a snowflake that had blown in and stuck to the gearbox…and i realized that i can’t remember the last time i took the time to look at snowflakes, in their amazing perfection. and jake was amazed, also, we spent a few minutes, in the cold car, before backing up, or getting our really late lunch, pointing out gorgeous snowflakes, “look at this little guy!” no, this one! and it really was one of those sweet times that you realize you will always remember that. that jake still is, in many ways like he was when he was a kid, he is always excited by new music, old music, ok, good music, really, he will always try something new, albeit in the same way, smelling it first, then touching his tongue to it, he is able to stop and smell the snowflakes…he is able to not ever make fun of me for crying at the drop of a hat, from a commercial, or thinking about our cats dying one day. he never tells anyone that i am an utter slob, even though he is incredible tidy, and our house can get a bit out of control…he never bitches at me. he never tells anyone that i am a terrible housekeeper. i would probably tell people if he were a slob. yup. i would. he helps me put my pain patches on, which are a real pain in the ass and he is meticulous and stops whatever he is doing to do it right when i ask. everytime. i will do a proper list for valentine’s. he is my sweetest. i don’t show him how much he means to me, and that is an important thing. for everyone you love. when i was tattooing, i learned about people…i saw that if you don’t take the time to find out, you will never know. it is true in all aspects of life. sometimes i meet someone that i thought i would totally love, have so much in common, this happened pretty recently, and updon getting to know them better, i realized that it is the very people that think they are the most liberal and openminded that are the most narrowminded judgmental people around. there aren’t too many people in my life that make me feel like a am a crappy person, but this person, made me feel just like that. the new me didn’t yell at them and tell them what i thought of them, i just kept quiet, calm, and smiled. i am utterly non-violent. i am a yeller, only if your corner me though, but this one…i would’ve love a sharp bitch slap. sorry if that is not pc. i won’t go on and on, but it shocked me when i ran into some who affected me so strongly. i generally avoid phoney peeps like the plague. with their moveable morals and bullshite politics. cannot bear it.
and on to a nicer subject…here are some super cute things for you to check out…cute!> what else? well! this gal, never stops!
ok, i am getting sleepy, so as we know, i do not fight my body when it says it is time. do not! please feel free to email me with a name for the mannequin head. there might be a little prize in it for the winning vote.
sleepy smoochies,
n.