i know that i only talk/bitch about my lack of materials to fill the orders, but it is all i think about. i feel like it won’t come. that is my gut feeling. i spun all day, using the odds and ends, but the singles i need to do and the 2 plies, i can’t do. i don’t have ANY merino. zippo. the sock yarns? all 10 colorways? no can do. and the order is due in less than 10 days now. my stomach hurts. all the time. i had to stop spinning because i felt faint and my hands were shaking. i had worked myself into a tizzy. i am in a tizzy much of the time. all of the time. ya. all of the time. not being able to do anything or make a call and find out what to expect, at least is fucking killing me. i cannot bear it. and i don’t know how to shut it off, because it is my only job to do this fucking thing right and i can’t.
i don’t know if it is a full moon or something but i have felt on the verge of tears all day. and night. and now. my backup small order got lost on their computer and rather than coming to-morrow, they are HOPING to get it out to-morrow. so. if i get anything this week, i will be lucky. by next week, i am fucked. i haven’t been listing stuff on etsy or luxe because i don’t know what i will have to send for the wholesale order, so i want to have back up stuff for them, if they even want to deal with me. they are wanting this stock for when they open, along with other handspinners, and if i can’t get my first order to them when they need it for their grand opening, i worry that they won’t want to buy from me again. i owned a shop for more than 10 years, i would be done with someone that did that to me. i don’t take that stuff well, myself.
i will shut up now. although, it is my blog, but i am even sick of hearing my own bitching, from inside my head and out. but it is all i can do. spin, wind, and bitch. i need to go start a sock or something to keep myself busy. my hands are too shaky to spin anymore today. i tried to skein some yarn and i nearly put the bulky bobbin-ful through the windowpane. so, i need to leave the poor yarn alone. it has done nothing wrong.
now do you know why i closed my tattoo shop? eeek.
today was mint chip at our local custard place and i didn’t even go! and they have it every other week or so. and it is my favorite. that is how shite i feel.
ok, off to kick something. someone. maybe i can pick a fight with one of the neighbors. chuck bobbins at them. not bobbins. maybe stuff from the freezer that we will never eat. ice cubes.
sigh.
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You know those “stitch ‘n’ bitch” girls? There should be “spin ‘n’ bitch.” I wish I had some extra fiber laying around here to help you out, but none of it is merino right now, and I only have 3 ounces left of natural colored white cheviot wool (i know you generally prefer your own dye jobs). Well, technically I have some merino, but it’s a washed fleece that was supposed to be coated (it needs some picking, and i loathe picking). I dunno if you’re interested in that, but I think it’s over or around a pound, and I’d trade all of it for the orange-y batt you have up on your site.
Oh, I’ve been trying to get a hold of our art association to get a spinning class set up, but they are the hardest to get a straight answer out of without being sent on a wild goose chase! But I’m trying!
Yeah, I checked, and the rest of that fleece I have left is about a pound even. I also have a washed uncoated merino fleece (so a bit more smaller vm in it than the coated one) that I think is around 2 pounds. (I’m not going to check right now on that one since it’s packed away and hard to get to).
hey I know we emailed for a while saying we would get together and it never happened but i only live 30 minutes from greensburg and i have atleast 40 lbs of natural colored Australian Merino 64s Top sitting in my closet. i also have a nice digital scale that i could use to weigh out what you need. let me know if your interested.
ugh, girl. Sorry you’re having to deal with all this stress. Have you called the shop owner to tell her what’s going on yet?
And I just went to check, and while I’ve got about a bazillion pounds of just about everything, I’ve got -no- straight undyed merino, or I’d gladly priority mail some to you. I’ve got domestic blends, though, so if you’re desperate enough, let me know and I’ll pack some up and send it flying your way.
I’ve got some merino and some merino/mohair blend, probably a couple of pounds, that I can split up and send out to you. Let me know and I’ll get it out Priority to you today – I have to get to the post office today anyway.
I’m so sorry that you’re having this awful time. Don’t be too hard on yourself, its beyond your control now.
It looks like a lot of people are willing to help out
and I’m sure the shop owners would understand if you explained to them what happened.
Don’t know much about spinning, don’t got no fiber to save my life (or yours) but will send you positive vibes and hope that everything works out in the end.
Hang in there camper and I agree ice cubes aren’t for eating.
kat, eliza, amanda and jamye…you guys are so amazing! you blow my mind. how is it that they blogosphere is such a wonderful place. i have stuff coming my way that should be here to-morrow…pray for me…although the big order is caput, which is a long story. i still have to order sock yarn, but once these two batches come (to-morrow…please!) i should be ok. thanks thanks thanks!
diana and bon, you are amazing friends. mwah!!!!