i will blog later about handmade arcade for those interested, although, let me say that the highlight was seeing my internet friends and acqaintances, and getting to be reminded just how wonderful they are. in addition, i saw a friend from years back (10?) from around here, adam macgregor, who was always an intelligent, sweet and amazingly talented guy. i look forwarded to hanging out and chatting in the future. i don’t know that many people from the olden days that i really want to know still, and catch up with. so hi adam! it was awesome to see you and your flaxen locks!
in other news, after a really long day yesterday, i was wiped out and depressed. i have said before that after big projects i get really bummed, and i guess that the show was sort of that. a lot of build up, plus i was thinking that i didn’t have enough stuff and ended up with an utterly ridiculous amount of stuff, as per usual. anyway, i woke up at 6am and the tv and my light was on (christina aguilara(sp?)’s video for hurt was on and it was really gorgeous. the song wasn’t even bad at all) and i didn’t remember falling asleep, which is not me. i turned it off, and when i woke up, it was 1p, and i was exhausted and felt like i had been in a fight. with 20 kick boxers. jesus. headache, which is the usual these days. maybe i drink gin in my sleep? anyway, i spent all day in bed, jake got the groceries, i called my mom to let her know a few things and told her a bit about how i felt, etc, and started crying. i got off of the phone, she doesn’t really know how to deal with me. i got in the shower and cried the whole time. sobbing. and i just feel depleted. i started knitting a hat for my niece, and the steady tempo kind of relaxed me, and my headache eased up after i took my meds.
i am ready to do some paintings and drawings. i have been so stressed out that i haven’t even done any drawings for the last few days. i am eager to make some things, work on projects that i have been thinking about. and i have a bunch of swaps that i need to get packed or knit up.
i did a swap with sara lechner, an AMAZING artist from germany. she asked for a poncholetta and “maybe” a hat in exchange for what ended up being a GORGEOUS mixed media painting, one of her angels, some old photos and when i came home from the show last night it was in my mailbox and despite my exhaustion from the day, i was blown out of the water. her work is gorgeous on flickr, but in person…wow. her blog is quite gorgeous, too, with a link to her flickr account, too. and she is building a studio which will be huge and has enormous windows, but due to the size, will be cold, so it makes me feel wonderful knowing that my stuff will keep her warm whilst she is creating things. i love that. thank you sara, it was just what i needed. i haven’t found the yarn to make her things that i like. the one she really like was striped with rowan big wool and handspun, i am thinking i will put pink and burgundy together, but maybe i will make it all handspun and use something that sort of has wide stripes on its own.
anyway, i imagine i have pms, and that is why i have a big gross bump on my cheek and feel like i got start blubbering at any minute. i also felt like i had a kidney thing coming on, and that is a thing that happens, too, for pms. sigh. and headaches. all the fricking time. boo hooo hooo.
i was kindly invited to crafty bastard(s) next year in dc, which i plan to work, and also bizarre bizaar(sp?) in the land of cleves, which is at the beginning of december. i have the trunk show at sugar for a couple of days mid-december, so it might be a bit tight. especially when i get so tired from these shindigs. speaking of sugar, the proprietress, jamie popped by at the show and she is the cutest, best dressed pregnant vixen of all times. she looks so cute all the time. tight long sweater, jean skirt, knee socks, cowboy boots. are you kidding me? too cute! she should be on cute overload! seriously.
i got some good trades there, plus good loot, which i will reveal to-morrow, i need to take photos. badly. i will. i swear it! i have much stuff to show you. i got jakie’s birthday pressies there, like i did last year, a few screened tshirts and a chocolate filled chocolate pillow from my punkrock pal heidi. that girl…i don’t know how she does so much. crazy. and little kids. amazing. i wanted to pick up a toy from friend or foe, just a little guy, but i didn’t have the cash on me and my booth was 20 miles away, so i forgot to go pack. ok. loot to-morrow. nuff said.
well, i am going to knit a bit, read a bit, and back to work to-morrow.
thanks for all the well wishes, it means a lot to me. i hope you all know that. okay? okay.
a photo, dated may 2005, when i got a drop spindle at sheep and wool and sent nutso with it. i think by june i got my louet, so 17 months since i caught to the bug. so odd. and the november before that is when i learned to knit. this yarn was dyed with koolaid, fiber from a local farm, yarn you could haul logs with. woah.

and a photo of pavel squeezed into a skinny basket filled with said yarn to sleep with it. cats seem to love sheep. hm. this is also from may of 2005…

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