luxe

i woke up and the eye was still twitching. although, i took my meds in the a.m. instead of before bed to see if it helped me to wake up earlier, and this morning it did, even though i was up until about 4ish. not early early, but not 2pm. i feel like i was on a bender when i wake up typically. so crummy that if i had to get up early, i would convince myself that i was ill. seriously. i dunno why i feel so bad in the morning. any other lupus/CFS peeps with the same issues? anyway, i got up and started getting orders ready and went to my doctor’s appointment and forced myself to go get some new bras. none of mine fit because i have gained weight and i had the 4 boob thing going on, and if i bent over they woulf fall out and it wasn’t terribly comfy, i must say. i didn’t find anything too cute (okay, one was hot pink, but it is of questionable structural integrity), but i got a nighty, some more yoga pants (i am attempting to get onto what not to wear, i wore gray yoga pants out of the house today!) some underpants for jakie (on a side note, there were these really cute boy trunks, sort of 50’s style that i almost got, i looked on the box at the model wearing them and i could actually see penis head. clearly. it was a little graphic for the time and place, ya know?) some really cute underpants for maddy (although i later realized that the one pair was low rise bikini…for an almost 4 year old? is that okay? although, it isn’t like they have big bums and hips like a woman that they need big bloomers for…) and that was it.

i really need to clean up the studio before i can do anything in it because it is even worse than it was in the photo, although the orders are gone, but it is MESSY. i can barely move in there. i got some new reach-in bins that stack and i am going to clean stuff up. i need to pack up some swaps, several and i am going to make an effort to get rid of stuff that i have too much of. huge several pound cones of yarn. paper. art supplies. beads. stuff that is just piled up and out of control. my desk is covered in stuff. the floor is covered in stuff. i ruined some yarn that was for an order so i need to dye it again and spin it again. also, the same yarn that got ruined got sold twice, so i need to spin up the other skein of it. and fiber. needs to be organized. driving me craaaaaazy. so that will be to-morrow before anything.

tonight, although i want to do some work, i think i will heed the eye twitch warning and just draw and crochet and maybe read my crummy book

thanks to everyone for you sweet comments about jake and i. i have to say that i think he is the cute one in this couple, and he thinks i am, which cracks me up. i imagine people see us together and wonder what the hell he is thinking, and he thinks the same about me. he thinks that all of you say he is hot to be nice, i tell him that people aren’t like that. it is just as easy…nay, easier to say nothing then to lie. of course i am biased, but even my granny who is brutally honest thinks he is gorgeous. and that is saying something. really.

xo
n.