luxe

so i got the root canal today and it wasn’t bad. i was told that my teeth are shaped unusually and i have unusually long roots, and curvy, too! the odd thing is that i have teeth that are big for my mouth, i had some pulled as a kid because of that, and the endodontist said that my teeth aren’t totally “erupted”. anyway, i knitted a monstrosity whilst being canaled(sounds like a sex act, no?) and it wasn’t bad. the filling i got last week wasn’t bad either. i wish i had a good dentist earlier in life, mayhaps i wouldn’t have a phobia. although, as long as i go to this one, i think i will be fine. and he thinks it is funny that i knit. i don’t get anything done and it looks like poop, but it keeps me more relaxed. i bring knitting virtually everywhere, especially if it is somewhere that i would be nervous. i wish i had knitted when i was younger, although no one would have bought me yarn. i would have had to unravel my mom’s cashmere sweaters. heee. my granny on my dad’s side was a travelling millinary saleswoman and had a driver, so she knitted all the time and made everyone sweaters that they could “grow into” even if they were full grown. my dad said that she never used patterns and did all kinds of elaborate patterns and cables. i wish i had gotten to know her better. we moved to america and she died pretty young, also. i find that i don’t enjoy following patterns either. i have a short attention span, i never like any large garments that i make, or even scarves i end up giving away for the most part and only use patterns to learn how to do things, and then i just do it from there. it takes me a little while to understand things, but once i do, i am set.

i gave my hairdresser a neckywarmer made out of the natural superwash merino roving unspun, so it is super soft and warm but lightweight. she is a skinny one and is always cold, so she told me she has been wearing it all the time, at work, etc, and likes that it doesn’t end up dragging on the floor, puffing out her jacket, shut in the car door and asked if i would make her some in different colors. she also said that all of her clients were asking where she got it. i must say, i enjoy having an excuse to knit up my yarns and tops without having to keep them, because then i feel guilty that i kept something that i probably will forget i have and could sell. i will probably make her a couple more and take them to my next appointment for her. a black one maybe with some sparkle in it, and then maybe a pinky one or something. she is really pale, so i am not sure what color would be complimentary. i love knowing that i am helping to keep someone warm. i wonder sometimes if it goes back to my jewish roots, because i really like feeding people, too. i feel like i getting to be near them keeping them warm. i am not sure sometimes if the people we make things for understand how heartfelt it really is. does anyone else think that? either people are over the moon and incredibly kind, or just sort of blase about it. i make loads of things for my mom because she is always cold, but i don’t know how often she uses them. when i was there she wore one of them, though. my mom likes the unusual, sparkly, shiny things so i get to make the most over the top thing possible, especially in jeweltones or in black with any sort of metallic and she tends to be excited. i made her some handwarmers for her achy hands, but i doubt she wears them. i promised my dad a pair of custom socks and then accidentally dyed the yarn black. i may be better off just ordering yarn from knitpicks that is slightly variegated. i don’t know if he would wear socks out of my sock yarn unless it was really plain.

i finally found where the flickr toys page was and just did one:

they also have the hockneyizer that will take random parts of a photo and make it into a poloroid, pretty cool. there are all sorts of other features also taht are cool. i didn’t know how everyone was doing those mosaics, and i was very pleased to find that! also, i don’t know if anyone remembers the flickr bookmarklet that they got rid of…you could pick any issue from any site and put it onto your flickr and it would have the link attached, as well. they have that feature on the toys page, so if you see something special on a site that you want to show on your blog, you can use that. i have seen a bunch of people do it on their blogs and sites, but i didn’t know how, i thought it was photoshop. and it will label each photo underneath, as you see above. check it out here.

i have been doing art things everyday, at least for an hour or so, and have come up with some ideas for bigger mixed media things. also, barbe and i have something coming up really soon that i think you guys will enjoy. i will give you the specifics this week. i promise! very exciting!

on sunday, we got groceries and then i had to get yarn skeined up before it got dark so i could take photos and list it, and i actually had more than i thought i did. anyway, i asked jake to help me, and while he does know how to wind a ball, finger crochet the roving (thanks for the tip lynn!)and knows the terms (beehives, supercoils, plying, roving, superwash, fiber and more!) he hadn’t wound skeins yet, but he helped me and did a super job. isn’t he the cutest thing you have ever seen? it actually blows me away sometimes. i can’t believe he is mine. all mine! hahahahahahahaha….no really. he took off of work early to go with me for my root canal, and sat back there with me rubbing my ankle while they worked. he brings me breakfast in the mornings whenever he is here. he rubs my back all the time. scratches it. anything. he is so considerate. i have never known someone so considerate before. i never really felt safe in my life, i was insecure, paranoid, depressed, i felt that a lot of people had betrayed me or let me down. in truth, i expected people to be more than they were, and time and time again i felt screwed over. jake…he is always there. i have never had that before, and it has helped me feel safe enough to grow as a person. to open up to possibilities. i don’t think that i would be as successful in my creative endeavors if it weren’t for him. i hope that i don’t sicken everyone with my jakie talk, but i think it is so important to appreciate the things in life that are good. he never makes me feel guilty that i am a slob even though he is neat, or that i have no energy and don’t carry my weight, or anything. i was afraid to go to the dentist when i had a cavity and it turned into a root canal. he didn’t get mad. he didn’t say a word. and he didn’t think it, either. i am a told you so kind of person. it amazes me. in fairness, jake’s parents are just the same way. they are endlessly kind and forgiving and generous, even for some people that have proven that they don’t deserve any of it. if you are family, they will do anything for you, no matter what. and really, even if you aren’t family, if they can help, they will. i can learn a lot from them about forgiveness, and accepting people for what they are. even if that isn’t so great.

not much else. my tooth isn’t very sore even. it was initially, i took aleve and it seemed to help. i started taking my oregano oil capsules because i worry about getting an infection in the tooth. i guess it is not likely, but when i got my wisdom teeth removed (a miserable miserable endeavor) i got dry sockets in two of the four and it was horrible. i looked (Even more) like a cabage patch kid and my lips split at the corners because my mouth was so swollen. it was baaaad. and now i know that i have roots a mile long, plus they were impacted.

i feel like i am being boring, and i am sleepy, so off i go to knit a bit, read a bit, and i already did a watercolor sketchy thing. and a hole drilled in my toof. so i have had a full day whilst doing nothing.

thanks for all of the kind words about my toof.
xoxoxoxoxoxo
n.