Archive for March, 2007

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Wednesday, March 14th, 2007

welp, here i am! i have been extra exhausted and migraineful when not so, and needed to get work done so i took my “pep” pill that my doctor gave me for such times. it is odd because when it wears off, it is so drastic, like a battery going dead…dead. so yesterday, i took a half, and about 4 hours later, it wore off. i was falling asleep around 5p and jake said i should take the other half so i wouldn’t fall asleep and wake up when he was sleeping, so i did and then was hyper like a maniac when he was trying to fall asleep and clearly annoying the crap out of him. i rarely can tell i am annoying him. when i take them, i am able to get so much done, i feel sort of winded, like i have been running (not that i really know what running would feel like) but i feel hyper at the same time. if i didn’t have the lupus and chronic fatigue, etc, etc, i wonder what i would be like? it is silly to really bother thinking about it, but i think i am fairly productive, all things considered, and i wonder if i would be manic and uber productive. who knows? not i. anyway, i got several mixed media pieces done which i really like a lot…wanna see?
this one is “come see”
come see
this one is “jump”
what now?
and “what now?”
what now?
and “march 5, 1974″
march 5, 1974
the little journal page is from a gardening journal i got at an auction that only has a few pages per year, at the beginning of spring until the end of summer saying the temperature, what is coming up and when and little clippings from the newspaper, mostly about gardening and gardening clubs. it is a bit odd. i have 3 more collages in the works. i overdid it a bit today, worked about 9 hours straight through which is a lot for me. i have had either a headache or bad nausea all day but don’t want to take my nausea meds because it makes me sleeeeeepy. i may just take it soon. gah! barf!

i printed out my shipping stuff which took FOREVER, it was a lot of packages, but i had other things that i had to handwrite that i need to mail off to-morrow. i had someone send me all of her weaving threads and stuff she didn’t need anymore that i was supposed to send some stuff, except that i can’t find her address (i saved the box for the label, but i can’t find it. anywhere.) i then searched through 2 of my email accounts and couldn’t find anything there and went onto knitter’s review forum where i met her, i think, and the conversation was gone, so i don’t have any idea how to even email her. i don’t remember what her username was. grrrr. i left a couple of posts and hopefully someone if not her will read it and contact her or me. i feel like a jerk. i actually almost sent the package to the wrong person. it is loaded full of good stuff that i know she will want, but…sigh. disorganization does have a price. i write everything down, but can’t remember where i wrote it. i couldn’t find any of my pencil sharpeners and after tearing the place up, i found it in my desk drawer. smart, eh? i do that a lot, put things in the place they should go, and then am not sure where i put it. sigh. i annoy myself sometimes. imagine how poor jake feels.

the studio is an utter pigsty and i need to clean it up after i get the last batch of orders out. it is so messy that i can barely move in there. i need to clean out my closet because i can store all of my fiber and things that are for sale on the shelves, so i have room for supplies i use on the studio shelves.

what else? one of my best clients sent me all of her yarn and fabric scraps plus a zillion of the little jewelry packs that had the bunny beads in them. i am soooo excited. once i get my errands done to-morrow and the cleaning up done, i hope to do some bunny yarns. she is the beeeeest! you know who you are lady!

i had a crazy nightmare the other night where a got caught in the middle of two gangs and they put everyone on their knees and told us to close our eyes and were cutting everyone in half vertically with a big piece of sheet metal. i couldn’t decide whether to keep my eyes closed or not. i didn’t want to make it easy for them…right as they were about to wack me, jake woke me up. there was actually a lot more to the nightmare, but a lot of it didn’t make any sense once i woke up. it did involve a sleezy hotel room that barbe booked for jake and i for our anniversary or something as a gag and we stayed there because we felt like we should, but it was super creepy and dirty and the only thing you could watch on tv was dirty movies. old ones. it has always bugged me that i only have creepy nightmares, never dreams. it seems like a reflection of my soul and self, that even in my own mind, i don’t get to be dazzling and successful. sigh.

a thunderstorm is starting, so i best get off of the computer. i love the rain!
mwah!
n.

luxe yarns featured on the etsy treasury!

Tuesday, March 13th, 2007

wooo hooo! i was so excited to be contacted that i was in again, i guess the people will rotate for the next wto days, so it might be different when you get there…linky? okay…heeeeere! a lot of my new yarns are gone already, but a few pretties are left and i am waiting on one person to see if they wanted a second skein of one, if not, i will list it to-morrow…

xo
n.

luuuuxe update!!

Monday, March 12th, 2007

i updated some new fancy yarns if ya wanna check it out…atluxe.etsy.com…wanna see some of the stuff? well, okay…
march update spring!
lotsa coils, lotsa flowers. i can’t help it. it’s spring! it’s spring! woooo hoooo! i am so excited. it is rumoured to get up to 70 degrees to-morrow!

i packed up orders and swaps that are incredibly behind (i am such a dud) and listed some stuff. i have baaaad cramps that make me feel like i made crap my pants or puke, hard to tell which, so i am in bed on the massager, which helps a lot. i have more to update, including batts and loose fiber that i dyed, so check back over the next day or two, okay?

not much else to report. my studio is a huuuuge mess so i NEED to make time to clean it up so i can actually work in there. it is hard to be in there when it is so gross. i attempted to watch a couple of movies whilst spinning this weekend, one ended up being poopy and dubbed in english from french…arrrgh. so i didn’t watch it. the other was a scifi movie that was so annoying that i turned it off almost the whole way through. sigh.

one of jake’s oldest friends came over on saturday with his 9 year old daughter. she and i worked on crafty stuff, she learned to do a crocheted chain stitch and slip knot and made a bracelet and necklace for her best friend and for herself. she kept calling crochet “lachey” which cracked me up. ala nick lachey. or nick crochet, as he is known in the yarn world. hee!

wanna see pavel’s new house?
musician's friend

off like a dirty shirt…
n.

woot woooot.

Thursday, March 8th, 2007

this has to be short because i feel a bit braindamaged after my migraine last night. jake told me that when he was leaving for work i asked him to “rub my notebook” when he asked me if i meant “rub my neck”, i apparently huffed and said nevermind. um. these things happen. i cleaned up the bedroom the other day and couldn’t find my nausea meds, so i was tearing up the house looking and then just conked out. i did another eraser carving and have some cutie sketches for some more. i will keep you informed. you have no choice in that. late last night i made some dough. actual dough. flour, water, sugar a bit of salt, mixy mixy, ate it. and i think i might just do it again. i have felt strange all day. i did get work done. i spun some yarn, skeined some yarn…
march 8 yarns

so here is a cute photo of pavel in his house, right? wait, no…there are his legs down there…so he is standing with just his head in there. why, you ask?
snooping! part 1...
and then these photos…here is photo 1…what the hell is he doing? well…a minute or two later, still in that position, not getting into his house to sleep, like he usually does in the afternoon…
snooping part 2!
see the neighbor cleaning the windows? yeah. pavel is spying on him. he hides from the birdies, too, ducks down so they won’t “see him”. nerdling.

anyway, i am feeling really out of it, i didn’t check email, i just loaded photos and will do all of the shipping and returning emails to-morrow. if i do that stuff today, i will screw it up and not remember what i did or didn’t do. so. if you sent me a message, don’t fret.

also, it appears that people are leaving comments and they aren’t showing up…if you have left a comment and it never appeared, please email me and let me know so i can contact blogger. sigh.

okay. off i go to snooze. i am so exhausted.
xo
n.

cheeeeeap. cheeeap. hop. hop.

Thursday, March 8th, 2007

okay, so i have bunnies on the brain after doing the bunny yarn and attempting to find some plastic bunny beads to do more, to no avail. i got the smart idea that i would make a stamp, stamp some shrinky dink paper and then make my own damn beads. although i think they would be too small, so i may make em out of fimo. it would be easy to do and extra one of a kind. and i have the awesome jacquard powders to make it irridescent, too. hm….so that will be to-morrow, i imagine, when i am too tired to do upright work. although i have no idea where my clay tools are from my clay school days, so i will need to use whatever i find. no biggie. so wanna see the bunnies on the brain…well some of em?
here is the first one, on an eraser and you can see it is not the greatest, but i haven’t done one of these in a looooong time and i used linoleum blocks which require more force which actually helps in not making accidental cuts, like the soft speedcut ones or erasers do…
lil bunny eraser stamp

here is the next one, much bigger, but it looks like a dead bunny due to the body position to me, anyway:
big bunny handcarved stamp

and here is my gorgeous new ring from ashley…my hands look really gross and rough in the photos, and i swear they aren’t! i have unphotogenic hands. who knew? i need to make sure to moisturize more before i get witchy hands. anyway, my wedding band was my granny’s original band that i had sized. it is not something i ever would have picked myself, but i love that i have something of her to wear all the time. she is still alive, but lives in australia with all of my aunts and uncles and cousins, so i rarely get to see her.
fingies and footsies
the stone and the opal spin! she has loads of stuff in her shop, earrings, necklaces, bracelets, rings, cufflinks and will do custom things too, so go over! and it is so reasonable! get it before she becomes really famous. i am telling you. go. buy. go! where? ashleyjewelry.etsy.com. as lovely as it looks in the photos, it is just such amazing crafts(wo)manship. and as someone who was horrible at metalsmithing in college, i know what it takes to make things that are this seamless.

i know i said i was working on a logo for the fluff-a-licious.blogspot.com podcast and actually do have a graphic designer working on some stuff, but i embroidered this in the meantime and will see how it looks as a button or banner. what do you guys think? my penmanship is baaad, i have noooo slant to my writing at all. as a kid, i was bumped from 1st to 2nd grade midyear (which marked the beginning of my hatred of school) and missed most of my writing classes and always had really bad writing. it isn’t ugly, just really hard to read. they made me turn my paper sideways to add slant, and it didn’t help, my writing is perfectly vertical and flat and because of the stupid teacher making me turn my paper, i have to do that to write now. grrr. so the cursive for the embroidery is not as nice as it could be, but i did my best. and i suck at embroidery. i am sloppy. anyway, please let me know whatcha think. of course barbe will get the biggest vote, but please be honest. don’t be nice just to be nice. okay? i can handle it.
fluffalicious embroidery

we got the new bed! it is sooo high. it doesn’t seem as soft as it did in the store. we will have to sleep on it for a little while and if it seems too hard still, we might need to exchange it. when the bed guys came it was snowing and the tromped snow and salt all over the place, left the front door open, unbeknownst to me, and after they left, i couldn’t find kahlo, who was really freaked out about the whole men tromping around, taking our bed, etc. i imagine she thought we were moving or something. anyway, i was freaking out looking for her. i finally found her in the bin in the bathroom closet that i keep my sleepy clothes in that pavel normally sleeps in there. when i found her, she was so freaked out that the snoot fur was wet! she was sweating poor lady! i had to pull her out of there against her will and she walked back and forth before finally checking out the bed. everyone is find with the bed now. except for us. the cats may forbid us to exchange it if we did want to. hmf.

i also did a few yarns today, all with loads of flowers. i don’t do a few flowers. i do a flower ever few inches. seriously. tooooons. i got some really gorgeous “silk” flowers and while i was pulling them apart to use, i realized that they are sort of a fibery paper and i know that no one is going to wash their artyarn creations a zillion times, but i didn’t want it to potentionall fall apart. i agitated some of the flowers with water and they didn’t fall apart, but still. photos of the new yarns as soon as i skein em, and they will all be listed this weekend.

i also dyed a big bag of baby BFL locks in avacado green, mauve and iris. i ran the dishwasher full of dishes, and sealed the zipper bag and put it in, so hopefully nothing bad happened. the locks are not super long like mohair, but are sooo soft and are really fine delicate little curls. they would work really well for doll hair and any other crafting stuff, and of course i love to spin them into yarns or ply em in because they are sooo soft and not so bulky. purdy. i will be doing more colors too. and i have a bunch of loose mohair dyed in different colors and other loose fiber, some of it from homestead farms which i was disappointed in. it will be okay for batts, but after getting such wonderful fiber from frenecreek, it just doesn’t compare. sometimes the washed loose fiber from homestead will be a bit felted. what is up with that?

i am getting really sleepy. i have had a headache all day and i woke up early this morning for the delivery after having horrible nightmares about jake having an accident and i couldn’t find him at work and when i finally did find him, it wasn’t jake, but my horrible piece of crap ex. and also in my dream, my mom was cheating on my dad with a 20 year old sport tuned car dude (you know the kind that have souped up hondas or vw and wear visors and pants falling down and listen to bad music and…you know the kind) and when i confronted her, she said that my dad knew, and he would just have to deal with it and it made her feel young. my mom would certainly not cheat on my dad, and if she did, it wouldn’t be with a kid. it would be mandy patinkin or someone else with a hairy chest. so odd. any ideas on what that meant? and prior to all of this stuff happening in the dream, i had my usual version of some post apocalyptic nightmare scenario with everyone trying to get to somewhere else and i was too tired to move but had to keep going. in most of my dreams, i am exhausted but can’t stop.

why do i barely get comments lately? am i boring? what? huh? too busy for me?
ok. so tired.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
n.

snorks ahoy!

Tuesday, March 6th, 2007

st. peter art yarn
and this one matches!
un poco again
wow. where have i been? well. here. we are getting our new bed to-morrow between 9 and 1 and so i had to clean up the disgusting mess i have made of our bedroom. really gross. jake’s side is fine, but mine…it sort of has taken over the whole room, really. i need to make sure that i don’t let it accumulate again. i seriously was embarrassed and disgusted with myself and jake had to help me because i got overwhelmed and felt upset and sick. i am such a pig. so, i packed up a few more orders today and went to the post office to pick up my new rings from the most fantastic etsy seller, ashley and whilst i didn’t take photos of me awesome gorgeous amazing beautariffical rings, i did make a little thingy with one of her rings and a necklace, i must get a necklace! and then two toys i am considering for my almost 4 year old niece’s birthday (although i would love to have them myself!) which are super duper cute. the links for both of these artists are at the bottom there. pretty cool? the ring i got has an opal on it (my birthstone) and she made the ring custom for me because my fingies are smaaaall. too bad my butt isn’t small. ah well. feet and hands are better than a tiny head i guess. anyway, this is the cool thing…it is on a pebble and both the pebble and the opal spin! not like a whirling dervish or anything, but they move. so cool. and then i asked for a love knot ring because i had one as a kid and she just threw it together and sent it to me. it is so cute! i will wear them forever!
toys for maddy, and some things for me

after the bed comes, i am excited to be able to do some actual…WORK! woot woot! keep your fingers (or rather, fingies) crossed that i feel up to it. i rearranged the bedroom a bit. i had this shitty ikea bookcase thingy as my nightstand because it is too narrow to fit one and it fell off of the wall a while ago while we were out of town (and fell on the sleeping housesitter spilling all of the crap that was on it all over her.) so it has been leaning precariously against the wall. on garbage day, people will tend to take stuff that is the least bit useable, or not, so hopefully someone will want it. i moved a regular bookcase over and got rid of most of the shite that was in the bedroom and moved the cat perches around (2 big ones, one that is attached to the window sills, 2 cubes and 2 cardboard scratchers. that is a lot, eh? we have 4 windows in here, so the cats enjoy checking out what is going on in the neighborhood. pavel loves to chat with the birdies on the wire outside, chirping at them. it is very cute. he also ducks down when they fly by.

tonite on BBC america eddie izzard’s newest special “definite article” is on and he has a bit about how if pavlov was trying to do his bell and food experiments with cats he would not have been famous. and it was really funny. we love eddie. he is so cute. such a big head that man has. i think i mentioned before that there is a new show on fx called “the riches” starring eddie and minnie driver! it looks amazing. fx has some really good shows. i have mentioned “dirt” before with courtney cox, which is fantastic, if a bit rough in some bits. also, i saw the next episode of the black donnelly’s last night which was really good. that probably means it won’t last long. that seems to be the way it goes, no? oh, also! on bbc america there is a robin hood series! how cewl is that? i will keep you posted whether you like it or not.

i finished a “fluff-a-licious” embroidery last night and meant to take photos of it and didn’t. sigh. i will. i will. i swear. and new batts, too. i swear it. and some new yarns. i am desperately looking for plastic bunny beads like i used for the bunny yarn to no avail. i found some on ebay for a fairly high price…for plastic fricking beads, but what can ya do? i found foam beads, which i have used before and work pretty well. i may pick those up. also, at michael’s i found little easter egg beads that will be cool, so that is probably the next yarn on the slate. i have a lot of locks from frenecreek that need to be dyed and i will probably list those by the ounce.

i was on one of my coffee blogs (seriously. no really) and found this crazy new alarm clock that cooks bacon so you wake up to the smell of bacon. seriously. aptly named
wake’nbacon.

and then on jess hutch’s bloggy:


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natasha –

[adjective]:

Like in nature to a train-riding hobo

‘How will you be defined in the dictionary?’ at QuizGalaxy.com

my noggin aches and i feel grumpy so off i go to try to chill out.
smooochies.
n.

and on the other hand…

Sunday, March 4th, 2007

we hung out with butter and his new girlfriend on friday, and i was really glad that she was really nice and intelligent. i tend to not do so well meeting girlfriends. let’s leave it at that. i think this one went fairly well.

i woke up saturday and was just exhausted. i tried to push myself to do work anyway, i did 3 bobbins of singles on the electric, strung a million flowers and pompoms for plying and then pushed myself to go in the studio and finish a custom order yarn, and literally by the end of the bobbin, my legs were cramped and i had to push to finish it up. i was incredibly frustrated with myself, but that was it. i did what i could. i was supposed to pack orders, but i was out of the tyvek envelopes i use, or the flat rate boxes, all i have is a big one or a really small one. so i couldn’t do orders, which was fine, because i was too tired to do it, really. so jake got groceries. and made dinner. he is a sweet boy. anytime i get exhausted like that, i get depressed about things. not about being sick, but just other things. i decided that i would like to have some people over for a tea and knitting or crafting, spinning lesson if you fancy (i have 2 manual wheels and an electric and i love teaching.) so any of you that live nearby, let me know and we can start organizing.

today, i feel a bit better, although i didn’t sleep well and had freaky dreams about a cupboard in my mom’s house that has the candy in it, and i was looking for peppermint crisps, which is an awesome south african candy that is thin shards of peppermint in chocolate. i love mint and chocolate, anyway, i opened a box up and live crabs came out. and then i started freaking out trying to get them into the box they came out of. it was creepy. anyone know what the hell that meant? maybe it means that if you try to take your mom’s foreign chocolate stash, you may get crabs? and my family never eats seafood, only fish. and my mom rarely cooked fish either because she thought it stunk. although when we cook fresh fish, it doesn’t. but anyway. we never had stuff like that.

on best week ever they were saying that jennifer hudson from dream girls is the girl you want to just be friends with because she is not “hot” like beyonce, and said that about other people that are gorgeous, but regular sized women, and i got so furious. has anyone noticed that most models are not actually…pretty? skinny? yes. the face? not so important. similarly with many actresses and other stars. they are considered “hot” or “sexy” even if they are not actually terribly attractive. thin…yes, that is all that matters. talented? that doesn’t really matter either. and then, if you are too thin, which is the difference between the olsen twin that is 100 lbs, and the one that is 90 lbs…well, then, you are gross. let me go on to say that in college, i got chubby. after college, i got even chubbier. i went on the atkins diet and literally lost my taste for food. i was going through some bad stuff, and i think it was the only thing i could control, and control, i did. i found that once you totally cut out any carbs or sugars, you don’t want them. nothing tempts you. i have never had a great appetite. if it isn’t really good, i won’t eat it. and i don’t eat much, i pick. somehow, i am still chubby. anyway, i got skinnier than i have ever been, i am short and have a small frame (about 5’2) and i got down to a bit more than 100 lbs, a size 2 or 4. i loved it. i felt awesome. and guys went nuts over me. i remembered the same guys that didn’t give me a second glance and anyone that gave me that vibe, i told to screw off. i never forgot it. it bothers me so much that i am critical of other people’s bodies. my gran and mom are, as well. and it just sucks. i look at the fashion models with their creepy 11 year old boy bodies, and i wonder how that has become the ideal. and don’t get me wrong, for the people who are naturally skinny, they have their own kind of beauty that does not add or take away from anyone else’s, but that is not the same as people starving themselves because the media has so much to say about anyone that is not super thin that they develop issues. anyway. it really upset me to see the incredibly ugly comedians on best week ever making those kinds of comments about women that were in fact drop dead gorgeous. i imagine that when they look in the mirror they are the new 007? or look like a sesame street character.

barbe and i are hoping to do a podcast this week. we are thinking that we will make it shorter…what do you guys think of that? was it too long? be honest. we are new at this.

we are going to check out new mattresses today. ours is beat and we are crippled when we wake up or turn over. anyone who has gotten a really good mattress recently, leave a comment and let me know what you got and what you thought of it. i am excited! it has been far too long.

i should be updating luxe.etsy.com later today, proably around 6p, so check in, okay? i didn’t get a chance to do more batts, but there are some gorgeous targhee ones still available, plus the henny penny ones, which are crazy carded with lots of fun stuff in there. i have loads of fiber dyed up for new batts, plus i just got in a bunch of locks to dye that will be available, probably by the ounce. i have had some issues with my dyes being really pastelly, so i think the dye batches may be too old. although, i will use em up anyway, and just not plan for them to be bright. they still come out really pretty. i am a color junkie, so i am pretty open to whatever comes out…

i have been working on some embroideries of drawings i have done, of the strange plants i was drawing a while ago. i want to do some mixed media pieces with similar drawings. i really adore them. i like the feather ones, too. i know i posted them before, i but i will post em again for any new peeps….
drawerings
i really enjoy the repetition of embroidery my drawings, although i am now realizing from starting some of them that i need to enlarge them. i do them on vintage linens. i am never sure how to frame the, although, it might be fine just in a plain frame under glass. suggestions? most all of the embroideries are on vintage linens with lacy edges, so i can’t just stretch it, you know? i would prefer not to pay 200 bucks to have it framed pro, either.

oh, for some reason, on my yahoo account, i have been getting penis enlargement/viagra and the like/local horny slut spams. the same ones everyday but from a different fake name. anyone else have this problem? my penis really is big enough.

this morning i watched a movie called duma about a boy and a cheetah that was really a sweet movie. it would be suitable for kids, and for catlovers. and has a happy ending. cheetah gets a lady cheetah.

okay, off i go.
xo
n.

bunnnnnnnnnies!

Saturday, March 3rd, 2007

well! if you haven’t seen the now famous “bunny foo foo” yarn, here it is…and it is sold, i am sorry. i am going to go in search for more of these beads which were from a children’s easter jewelry set from last year…so…but anyway, i spun all of the scraps of roving end to end overlapping a bit and then plied these in. there is a plain matching skein too. i have other ones going up to-morrow, also that are just gorgeous. no “plain” ones in the batch. so check in around suppertime to-morrow and then again sunday for yarns and spinning batts. i have dyed up soooooo much loose fiber lately that there should be some really good batts to fill the luxe.etsy.com shop. and it is all combined shipping, $4.05 no matter what you buy, so let’s just say that i send priority and insure them so i pay more than that…okay…yarn photos…let me say, i am loving the new photo toys. so fun. and it makes my blog look fancy!
bunny foo foo
mar 1 fancies

so in the one sandy colored one, i have a ton of little mother of pearl shell beads all through it that are just gorgeous. it is such a nice soft beachy yarn….if you had your own island in the caribean kind of island. and then more batts, for sure. also, i have lots of loose fiber and different kinds of locks, which i think i might dye and sell by the ounce, i have had lots of questions about it. so. ask and you will recieve. also, i am going to write up some patterns to include with yarns orders so people know what they can make, if they need it.

we went out to dinner with the sweet butta and his new girlfriend who was a really cool girl. i would hang out with her. she was really really nice, intelligent, together and easy to talk to. i have a hard time meeting girlfriends because i have a history of them hating me, this may be my first really good experience! i fear we bored her because we aren’t terribly exciting and i tried my best not to speak of knitting, or fiber, art or any other stuff that she would likely have no interest in and then my eyes glaze over and i am not listening to anyone while they weep and rip their hair out bored out of their skulls. so then…i am not sure what to talk about. despite that, it was fun.

my laptop has to go to the shop to get something fixed and i really need to send it in soon. here is the problem…in the 2 weeks or more that they will be fixing it, i will have no computer. i found some websites that sell refurbished macs that are pretty cheap (as low as 300 bucks) and i only need to know that it can load photos and do fast uploads for the internet stuff, otherwise, i don’t use it much. email, photos, maybe the podcast stuff, minimal though. so i need to call the place and talk to one of the geeks and ask what i could get for cheap that could do all of that. and then, it is always nice to have a fallback computer anyway. if anyone has a working laptop that has wireless capabilities that would be interested in leasing it to me for a couple of weeks, or selling it for cheap, let me know. again, if uploading stuff on the internet would take forever, no dice. i looked into renting one, and it starts at 250 bucks a week! wha? starts at, so i imagine it is way more than that even. i realized that i could get a refurb one, or open box one from these online places for a few hundred bucks, but i don’t know if they are fast enough for the stuff i do. i know nothing. shameful nothing. i was impressed though, they give you a 1 year warranty thru mac, and 90 days from them. some of them are just completely made from spare parts, all new parts, but spare parts and are way cheaper.

i loved the input on the fashion post. i was a bit scared that i had ranted too much and someone would jump on me or something but what i guess i realized is that fashion used to be glamorous, you know? it seems like around the early 1960′s bad bad things started happenning and never stopped. everything that i like was from the 50′s or earlier. things that took into consideration that we have hips and thighs and boobs and stomachs and other stuff, too, and that things needed to show that off and make our curves look good. back then, even big girls could buy fashionable clothes that made them look sexy. now, fashion is only for the very thin, if you are not 6 feet tall and 100 pounds, it would be frightening. and even on the models, it doesn’t look so good. it really is almost as though fashion is from people who hate women. clearly, they hate the female form. what flatters a 11 year old boy is not what flatters a woman. pretty much across the board.

part of my mania had to do with the full-moon. i get craaaaazy everytime and i never know why. and pms always creeps up on me too, and i am unaware of why i feel so irritable. part of it is the insane amount of money that is wasted on shite. they want and like it because someone told them to. because j-lo wears it, or whatever. and then, you have a nervous breakdown, or get heavier or whatever and they all turn on you and it really upsets me. they are like vultures. i have attempted to be friends with people who turned out to be this way….they are around you to steal attention and style cues (how scary is that?) and if you want, they buy it, etc, and do it with other people, and when that person falls from their high pedestal, they are happy to step over them. it is sad. and the clothes that they had to have that were 3,000 for some ugly mini jacket, garbage. last season. i don’t know why you would want to live like that? i would want things that i will love forever. i love the 30-50′s and anytime i am dressed up, i tend to wear something in that vain. i have always liked that kind of thing. how can anyone be so damn fickle?

okay, i am getting tired and grouchy, so i am going to go.i had bad nightmares and felt awful this morning, so i didn’t sleep so well.

barbe’s phone and internet are sketchy at the mo, so i might try to do a podcast on my end, we will see what happens. i will talk to barbe about it to-morrow to see if i could get the recording thing and tape us from my end.

i know there was more i wanted to say, but…
xo
n.

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