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let me kick off this post by saying that jake and i had a wedding anniversary on thursday. as much as i feel like a bad partner due to my constant lameness/exhaustion/etc/etc i am amazed that jake doesn’t tire of me and is so sweet and kind to me and never gets mad at me. we were at his parents house for supper and i was talking to his mum about jealousy and she said to me in the most honest way “you are so lucky that you never have to worry about jake looking at anyone else. you can just tell how much he loves you.” and she is not a smoke up the bum sort of person. when someone’s mom wishes they had a husband like them…that is pretty impressive. not that his dad is not a great fella.

i never would have imagined that i would be married at all. i was always a no marriage sort of person. remember that episode of the facts of life when jo ran away and got married to that guy in the army? well, i felt like marriage was like that. young people living in a pop-up vw van or something. i am not sure why, either, because my parents are very happily married and have always gotten along really well. when i was with jake, it was like he just took me for what i was, lumps and all, and somehow didn’t seem to see those lumps as bad things. he makes me feel like my maladies made me more special. he looked at me like no one has ever looked at me. he wouldn’t let me push him away. he didn’t push me. he was just there when i was ready. he is the kind of man that just seems like he has a plan and kn
ows what is going on. he makes me feel safe. i had never felt safe before. that is probably my own issue, but we moved around all the time as a kid. we had no family around, no long time friends. i felt like it was just me.

he has given me the strength to really do what i want to do. my only limitation is myself. i can go as far as i can go. i love him so much. i admire him so much. he is the most kind and beautiful person, inside and out, that i have ever known. i love you jake. you rock.

and on to kitteh stuff. guess who is teething? (hint…it isn’t me) so she is really fussy and wants to chew and suck on my fingers which makes me skin crawl. dunno why. she really works up a suction, tell ya what! my sleep schedule is super jacked up, i get up about every two and a half hours to feed her, and she is fussy so it normally takes at least an hour to get her fed pooped and back to sleep. and she starting to climb out of her bag, now, so that is kind of an issue if she wakes up and tries to take off. aye aye aye! she is beyond adorable, though. she will do the attack thing with me, and it is so cute to see her trying to be a little badass. so, you want some photos, i reckon? i must say, she has been creating such a stir! peeps is surprisingly good with her. the other cats stay away from her and us, which bums me out. it got better briefly, but now it is back to no other cats around.

this is where she usually is…

there are tons more on my flickr if you want to die from the sickening sweetness. like eating marshmallow fluff, but with no calories! to help to detach you, she farts a lot. bad bad kitten farts. she tries to pass them off on her woobie, but blankets don’t fart. they just don’t. do they? okay, one more…

i have gotten NO work done. yesterday, rather than doing internet stuff that i needed to do, i made the buttons i wanted to make because i haven’t gotten to do goddamn anything. they came out well, i think i have some things figured out much better now to do them faster. wanna see? i may do a tutorial, although they are super easy, so i dunno if it is needed. what do you think? i am also thinking off adding some paper and things like the beads i did…

i will be selling them in my store soon. they are nice and big, over and inch. i have made some neckywarmers that will either have some big vintage button closures or some of the fancy buttons i made. i did some toggle buttons the same way, too. i saw a couple of things about making polymer clay buttons that suggested embedding a small button inside of it for added strength and to use the shank, although i personally hate using shank buttons. i may try it just to make sure that the don’t split where the holes are. they were really fun to make and i only burned myself once with the heat gun. they look like raku, no?

and now for some fantastic links! ibenhoej.com and
kirsty hall who has a project where she will post an envelope filled with something secret to herself everyday and not open them until the exhibit. i love that idea. i have the worst memory of anyone who isn’t senile (seriously) to the degree that i can look through my sketchbooks and ooh and ah. i ran into this GORGEOUS french site coleur clementine which i had somehow never even heard of before. fabu!

okay, it is about 2:30 am, so i should probably try to sleep a bit before izzy wakes up to eat. i actually fell asleep around 8, i think and woke up around midnight. crazy. forgot to eat. oops. and yet, a fat bum.

i am really really trying to get an update out this weekend. i feel like i have been a horrible business owner. i also have a couple of wholesale orders that i need to get finished soon. i haven’t touched my wheel since i made those cotton yarns (which will be in the update)

i am really trying to be better about blogging. i want to, i just get so exhausted, ya know? i am ever behind on emails. really behind. my mum and dad sent me an amazon gift certificate for our anniversary days ago and i didn’t even know. i still haven’t checked it. i get so overwhelmed tht i just don’t want to look, ya know. bad. i know that i have to try harder. i just have to. once izzy is weened (which should be soon, i imagine in a month or so, she should be independent) i will be a person again. for those of you with children who actually do ANYTHING else at all…wow. you blow me away. it is more than a full time job and unlike a kitten, they aren’t okay on their own in a couple of months. sheesh. also, cat mamas are something else. can you imagine taking care of 6 newborns at the same time and only using your mouth! sheesh.

okay. mwah. mwah. mwah.
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This entry was posted on Tuesday, August 21st, 2007 at 11:26 pm and is filed under buttons, isobel, kittens, Links.