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while cruisng etsy slooking for somet nice papers and instread l find al of this strange ephemera and stuff. now, i guessi drifted off and t oen did seeing elephants at posh parties seving tea=, snf warm scones with clotted cream n jam.on a ferry. hanging out. all these questions swam aroujdy mimd and iknw i shouldn’t ask, but knew it would be gone soon if i didn’t. he asked me if i felt okay and let me mt rokkkklllklllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllld
so i am trying to get it out as ai fprget every second …the migraine easting up braincess. chomping. when you havce a migraine and take your meds for it, and the trt to spell the words so they know what you see, what this is all about and you cannot pul it goether. or you can for a second d=n…i felt like i just had t doooooooooooooooooooo something. i keep lookin at my hands to see where my needles are. even in my dreasm things are messed up. no one is allowed to go to schfool . i can spell. i saw a crazy attack on a sitting girl. i am seen=in gthins. i gkeep forgotenning what i awas going to saw because i have dozed off, but i sear i had impofa wnr i thought i was holding dish of food and no===but i am super hungry, although, deleriously tored too/
in my dream ym doctor told jake to give me massafes and i never told jake and when found out he was mad at me. but it never happened at all. just now, i thoguht that i was lying on a raft in the ocean with my leg up on the side and ialmost got flipped and it is far far away. i just woke up up again and woke myself up scared that i was falling into the icy water. i notice that a turnk full of my yarn is slipping into the water and then i snap awake again here typing. i go back and am in the strage section wwhere other people are freaking out and i trty to calm them down. i see some lovely old furniture, i take a gloved hand to dust it off and i wake up. kinda. dunno if this will make sense or it, my mind just pulling in all directions. migraine meds and a migraine do bad things to my poor brain trying to undersatnd where even aluna is going or meaning and then i lose the thought. now i am cooking, now…thinking of a friend getting pulled up by her waist like a circus performer and she is shocked and is sfrfeaj dj. i realize that i a am in bed with my laptop, husband, ktties, and am typing, slowblxccxxxxxxxxxxc dozing trying to help someone in my ffihgt ,tahtdidn’t wanna dye. i have a feeling that someone in out extended chain of friend or family is going to die, or be hurt vvery badly. i am so out of it that i have to shower and let the migraine do
be safe okay