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one in a series of mixed media pieces that i feel need to be mounted and/or framed to seem done. so i have just left them in my studio. i really love them, though. what do you guys think? tell me, i can handle it.

so obviously, you all know that i have had migraines since i was wee. i never realized that the things i see are things that lots of other people see, too. also, people with epilepsy see similar things before a seizure. my neuro has told me before that migraines have a similar scrambling effect on the brain as seizures do. i know that i have problems finding words after a migraine, remembering phone numbers, it is a strange thing. have alzheimer’s must be like that in some ways, but it doesn’t go away. it must be so frustrating. before migraines, many people have “auras” which means that you see wierd shapes and light or dark spots, or can be blind spots, which i have badly. also, you can smell everything really intensely, often bad smells that may or may not be there. i tend to think that i smell bad and can’t figure out where the smell is coming from. also, any kind of food smell will make me nauseous. minor sounds are incredibly annoying and make your ears actually hurt, like someone clapped you on the ear. i have a lot of these strange sensitivities all the time, actually, certain sounds make me want to hurl…people chewing, the sound of things pouring…especially in a commercial, it drives my insane. oh, here is another really strange one…you know when someone folds a piece of paper and then runs their forefinger and thumb over it to make the crease, and sometimes they do it over and over? that is like nails on a chalkboard to me. and when i worked as a tattoo artist and piercer, i would give instruction sheets for care and while i was explaining it, the customer would fold it and fold it and fold it and i would get so edgy that i could barely talk. not that they listen, anyway.

i can’t use sandpaper. it has a similar effect as the above mentioned. also, i can’t stand people putting a popsicle stick in their mouth. huuuurrrl! i don’t know why. i know it makes no sense. it just drives me crazy. here is this amazing article from the new york times on visual migraines. really interesting.

i have had a mild on again off again migraine brewing for the last couple of days and i stayed home and made jakie go out with our friend because i was afraid i would go out and get sick. he really tries to refuse to go anywhere without me, but i don’t want him to have a boring life just because i do. i hate to try to look normal when i don’t feel good and i had already gone through a few of the migraine symptoms already. and it is starting back up again. so i best get off of the computer and quit bitching about being sick. waa waa.

i did get a zillion yards of an alpaca/silk yarn that i overdyed (it was like tan and cream carder together…boooooring) and it was so nice to spin. it was so much like silk, i wouldn’t have even known what it was if i had to guess. really lovely. it is in purply blues mainly. a bit boring, but ya know. and i rebraided the rovings i dyed the other day and that made them look much better right out of the gate. i need to take new photos because the onesi took sucked. ah well.

xo
n.