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2:31 a.m.

Tuesday, April 29th, 2008

my bff and me
well, as you may have guessed, i had another bad week, although i did get a couple of okay days to enjoy the weather. i had migraine after migraine and realized way too late that these delicious garlic pretzels had msg in them, which is a huge no-no for me. i am actually lucky that i wasn’t sicker than i was, although i have had non-stop headaches. i couldn’t stop eating them and then asked jake if he knew, he had put them in a zipper bag, so i couldn’t see the ingredients. we always look at everything because msg and blue cheez can put me in the ER, but you don’t think pretzels have it, ya know? anyway, i didn’t sleep last night and felt sick and actually was lying here feeling like crap and decided to do a quicky blog post. i have a bunch of batts to show you, in addition to the other ones that STILL aren’t listed. i just have barely been online because my vision is funny and i feel so nauseated and crummy. i am a bit addicted to the electric carder. i get so pooped out so easily, it is so fun to just feed in the fiber. it does get hung up pretty easily, so i do have to manually kickstart the drum, and my hands are wrecked. jake was impressed. they look manly. mini-manly. here are some of em. if anyone wants something, let me know, i am hoping to get them listed on wednesday, or maybe to-morrow if i get all of my invoicing done and packages packed.
new batts for april 29

i also have dyed top that isn’t even photographed, plus more dyeing i need to do with some solidish colors for batts. we all know that it kills me to pay for dyed top that isn’t super nice…which means i would have to pay a lot to get decent stuff, even though i haven’t really seen such a thing. i hate colonial top. i like the superwash from brown sheep, but that only comes in a few colors.

here are a couple of creatures still in the works. i need to futz around with some arms and legs,etc and see where they want to go. i generally see what the piece wants to do, kinda like yarns. i may have a basic idea, but that will fly out the window if the piece doesn’t seem to want to be that way. ya know?
softies in progress

maryland sheep and wool…i don’t think we are going. i am broke, mainly because i have been too out of it/lazy to get stuff listed, and i have so so much of it. mixed media pieces, paintings, softies, crocheted jewelry, knits, yarn, fiber, batts, vintage stuff, plus stuff that i need to send out to a couple of stores. i frustrate myself. anyway, between being poor and the weather being horrible, i think it might be better not to go. i had talked to a friend about working sheep and wool but kind of blew it off, and now when i see people i know working it, or at least working with a yarn shop that is working it, i get mad at myself. it wasn’t expensive to work, it would have just been the time and energy. in the end, i get so scared to commit to things in advance because of the stupid health issues i have, that i end up not doing things that i want to do. in fact, i convince myself that i don’t want to do it anyway. i have been asked to work with some awesome people in their booths at whatever craft show, and if it is in the summer and is outdoors, i know that i can’t be in the sun for any length of time, even under a tent, i will get overheated and then if it is a multiple day show, i know that i just can’t do it. and i don’t want to let someone down. so i don’t do it, and i get pissed off at myself. sniff.

my head is pounding, so i think i will go and take a shower.
xo
n.

le sigh.

Saturday, April 19th, 2008

yesterday i had high hopes of getting lots done. i had to run out and do some errands so i ended up going with jake when he got home. by that time, i had taken photos of the new batts i made and crocheted wire and beaded jewelry from a while ago that i still haven’t listed. by that time, i had a fairly bad migraine, too. when jake got back from doing his stuff, i was out of it, not feeling so good, had cramps plus the migraine. i don’t remember falling asleep, but i did and then woke up right before he went to sleep. i didn’t sleep very well and woke up early again, although i didn’t shower until about 10:30a and i made myself eat. i haven’t been so into eating lately.

today i had high hopes of getting lots done, but i feel like poo. jakie is practicing for a couple of shows he and a friend will be doing (i will keep those of you who are local posted on when they are) so i planned to tinker with the new carder and adjust it and maybe go to the nursery to get some plants and to the craft store, but i feel like poo. my head hurts, but more importantly, i feel really out of it and discombobulated, so i always worry about driving. it annoys me most once the weather is nice. it makes me feel like an 8 year old with a broken leg or chicken pox during summer vacation, you know? there are some things that you can’t push through. i decided to blog just to vent at least, even if it makes my head hurt. at least i will have done SOMETHING. although, i did actually put makeup on and do my hair. so i did do something.

here are some of the batts i made this week on the pat green carder. my louet makes a much thicker batt, and lumpy if i want, too, these are twice as wide and much finer. purdy.
new batts april 18 luxe.etsy.com

xo
n.

maryland sheep and wool? wot wot?

Saturday, March 29th, 2008

somehow i have been in a world of my own and didn’t realize that maryland sheep and wool festival is this coming weekend. i don’t think we will be going. i mean, i know that jake will go with me if i ask, i just haven’t made any plans, whatsoever, and haven’t been listing new stuff because i swear i have been sick for the last month, so i am broke, too. hm. who out there is going?

in other news, despite waking up feeling beaten (again), i got some dyeing done, talked on the phone a bit and then totally crashed out for hours. you know that kind of sleep that you are completely baffled when you wake up and look at the clock? the craziest part about it is that i have still be exhausted at night and falling asleep at 1 or 2a, despite sleeping until 7 or 8 sometimes. i have to get all of my lupus, fibro, cfs, etc, etc, etc, bloodwork done to make sure that there isn’t something up. i keep putting it off, like everything will be okay if i don’t get the tests done, ya know? my allergies have been crazy, too. for example, i have tears streaming out of my eyes right now and i am not sad. plus the constant snot dripples. sexxxxxy!

and a few links for ya…
how cool are these organ shaped water bottles? pretty damn cool, indeed.
and you can engrave your laptop, or moleskine, or whatevah at engrave your tech.com kewl!!!

more to-morrow.
n.

is it caturday yet?

Saturday, March 29th, 2008

ghost house (oval pink)
well, just a quick post to say that i am indeed alive, and that i appreciate that anyone is wondering about me. i have had the migraine from hell that just won’t go away. it kinda goes away and then comes back that night, or i wake up with it. when i don’t have a full on migraine, i feel out of sorts, so i know it is going to come back in a few hours, which it does. since i have had good migraine meds, i rarely get this knocked out, but once you get into the cycle, it is hard to get back out of it. i have actually had some projectile vomiting. seriously. for the migraine pros out there, you know how usually you feel it coming on. nauseous, dizzy, sweaty…these ones…i feel bad, my stomach hurts and then…i hurl. and hurl. and hurl. like when a little kid hurls out of the blue and you can tell they are surprised and then start crying? like that. it is very odd.

the only thing i could think of is that i got blow pops to put in with my orders, i usually don’t eat them. i have been eating them, a couple a day (i share with kahlo. bad. i know.) and i am really sensitive to tons of foods, scents, you name it. that is the only thing i have done different, so i wonder if something in there caused them. sounds odd.
otherwise, not much. jakie is going to be gone most of the day to-morrow, so i plan to get some fiberliciousness done in the meantime. let’s pray that the headache nonsense can just be over tonite. fingers crossed. i must say, vomiting and black spots and dizziness really don’t mix well with getting anything done. le sigh.

mwah
n.

i woke up!

Thursday, March 13th, 2008

lollipop!
so, where have a i been for like…a week? well, i had the curse, okay? cramps, crazy stomach, migraines (several) one that caused me to think i had accidentally poisoned myself (not sure on what or why, but ya know) and i kept puking up bile or something and was so dizzy and screwed up that i woke up jake, again, thinking that i was poisoned and if i lapsed into a coma, i wanted him to know what was going on. um. i have spent just about all of the weekend sleeping or puking. we were supposed to go out with butter and lauren, and i really wanted to, but i felt all screwed up and sick and it was a good decision because the aforementioned migraine happened that evening, and being out would have been a bad thing and probably made the migraine/vomiting bad enough to get me in the hospital, which i hate so very very much. once you get dehydrated, you are kinda screwed, ya know? i have had that odd feeling all week, so when i got the migraine, it made sense. i also have had the mega super snoot, so at one point, i told jake that his breath was gross and after he left the room, i could still smell it, so i realized that it was in my head. or something. le sigh. so we did nothing this weekend. well, jake did stuff, i lay around and did nothing. i did work on some paintings and sketches in between being super sick, but i didn’t even go online because i haven’t been able to see, etc, etc, etc. i am feeling better now, though. damn ovaries. nothing but trouble. ya know?

3 of the house mixed media pieces had a cup of wash water fall on them. it was izzy’s fault, she tends to reach up onto high shelves and knock stuff over, but it was mostly my fault for leaving anything out, so. i fixed them, used the matte medium mixed with gouache so the paint will not smudge, and i like them much better with the changes i made, although the linework is still not up to par. i haven’t painted in ages, so i am getting my hand back. it takes time, i know. wanna see em?
ghost house mixed media 1-4

i have a bunch of good links for ya. so here…
http://www.petermarigold.com/
http://photoshopdisasters.blogspot.com/
watch this!
look at this…
and this
and this
watch this one

not much else to report, because well, i have been sleeping almost all of the time i have been incommunicado. i am hoping to feel good enough to get work done this week. i have been working on some polymer clay dolls, too. i will keep ya posted. i did some sketches, too.

oh, i watched the jacket with adrian brody and it was a fantastic movie. it was on hbo, and i thought it was the jackal because i didn’t have my glasses on (like usual) and my vision is getting much worse, but i get headaches from my glasses so i don’t wear them and can’t see. anyway,jake asked what the movie was and when i told him he said, the jacket, maybe? and i said…that makes way more sense. anyway, it reminded me of jacob’s ladder a bit, but it was really a cool movie. and surprisingly uplifting. in the end, it was just that no matter how bad life is, when it is over, you wish you were alive again. it is never too late to do things, it is always better to have another chance. so. also, we watched a few minutes of a movie called beerfest and i was amazed that movies like that are able to be made. of course, the guy that makes the girls gone wild videos is a gazillionaire, so, i shouldn’t be surprised that anything is done, really. ya know?

so, i am hoping that my period will be done to-morrow, i will feel good, my head will be clear, i won’t be dizzy, nauseous, tired, etc, and will be ready to get some stuff done. i haven’t done much spinning and i have been really eager to do so. so there we go. i have 2 custom yarns to do and i need to get stuff finished to send off for some shops, and i really need to get a current art portfolio together and try to get into some shows/galleries. we will see.

i missed you guys.
xo
n.

shlubbbby

Thursday, February 28th, 2008

i had a few bad days, needless to say. you know, the days when you don’t sleep all night and then wake up at 12:30 p.m. and literally don’t have the energy to get up and get coffee or a shower, check email, do anything. and i dozed on and off, and then headaches at night. woot! i feel better now. in honesty, i didn’t feel sick, just exhausted. for anyone who wonders what chronic fatigue syndrome and lupus (et al) mostly do to me is that. you know how you would feel the day after you ran a marathon after partying all night? i think, that is what it would feel like. so. i did do a bit of knitting for gifts, and i have been sketching and working on some mixed media things…here is the proof…the house one needs to be mounted still, i think in a shadow box. i need to figure that out. i have another version in mind that will have the shingles and roof tiles from individual wee pieces of paper. i will go a bit bigger, i think even though i tend to have issues with big projects that take too long. i lose interest, usually after i have spent a ton of time on it. i need to get better at that. and also at pacing myself. i tend to dive into whatever it is i am super obsessed with at the moment and get sick of it before i actually perfect it. so. i really need to pace myself.
sketchbook and such week of feb 23
one of my only high school friends sent me the link for the yappy yinzers talking dolls. they are actually rather hilarious. make sure that you clicky on the dolls to hear what they say. if you haven’t ever heard a pittsburgh accent before, these dolls are right on. i don’t sound like that. i didn’t grow up here. so. i hope i don’t, anyway.

i applied for two plush shows, one i got the bulk email for, and i know tons of people applied, but still. sniff. the other, for plush you, i haven’t heard anything, which i assume is also a no. i did get a reqeust for some of my mixed media collages to be in a new online and maybe print magazine

jake just rolled over and told me that he just had a dream that he had enormous hair. i attempted to ask him what it looked like, was it an afro? he said it was styled but enormous. hm. he has curly hair, so if he grew it out, it would grow…well, out. up. it would be funny. he did have a bit of a tom waits tousled look for a little while, which i thought was super cute, but as a boy that has spent his life fighting his hair, he has a hard time just letting it be its curly self. wanna see what pavel has been doing to cuddle up with jakie lately? okay….it is dark, but can you see? hogging the pillow?
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here is an awesome site i have never heard of before. have you heard of circus hour.com? it is funny. this artist…artist isn’t even a strong enough word…allison sommers work is tiny and otherwordly and so so amazing. it literally takes my breath away. it is so sublime (yeah, i just said that.) i can’t even relate to it. so. look at the detail in the work and then look at the size that they are. insane. there are not many artists who have this effect on me. not just wow…but wooooaaaah.

i have a beast of a headache pumping and i need to finish checking emails and try to go to sleep so i can be productive to-morrow, i mean, today. and it is friday already. woah. i am craving soup and salad from the olive garden where we never ever go because the food is faux italian and is mega salty, but i crave their minestrone and breadsticks for some reason. hm.

mwah. wish me luck that my migraine is not just starting, my ears are aching, my neck is hurting, i feel all funky. off i go. le sigh.

xoxo
n.

ka-pow!

Sunday, February 17th, 2008

loose locks
check out who has the best ham and chez in america! woot woot! primanti bros in pittsburgh (we even have one in my town, too.) it is a gigantor sandwich that has their vinegar coleslaw, french fries, tomato (i get no tomato) and even an egg on it if you like. these were a staple for before and after going to see a band, or coming from a bar if you needed to get some grease in your stomach. and they are open super late. yum! mayhaps we will get one for dinner. usually, i would share with someone and still not even eat my half.

i finally go invited to ravelry! i am luxe for anyone interested i am rather baffled about how to get my shop listed. i listed some stuff in my notebook under stash, but i have no idea what more to do. i got frustrated pretty fast and fell asleep. i wanted to get new photos of the fiber done, plus weighing and tagging that and other fiber, but it is so dreary out and fiber tends to look better with daylight than the lights. i may end up having to use the lights if it is dreary again to-morrow. i am hoping to do a bit more dyeing to-morrow and will likely do an update then.

i have had this lingering migraine aura that makes me nervous to go get groceries or drive. my vision is a bit spotty and i feel like my head isn’t attached to my body. the florescent lights do bad things to me, especially when i feel like that.

i found stuffwhitepeoplelike.org via my buddy shannon and it cracks me up. there are a bunch of people who got super super pissed off and left comments and it cracks me up. i am doing my very best to keep a bit more caught up with blogs. i got so behind that i couldn’t catch up, so i really am trying. i don’t know how super productive people manage to find new things online, read blogs AND get stuff done. very impressive! my collages went to art stream studios for the valentine’s benefit show, so pop by and see if there is anything you fall in love with (get it? valentine’s day?)

mwah!
n.

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