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Thursday, June 7th, 2007

Fwd: this cow is SO scene
well. well well well well. my wedding band (actually my granny’s) has been making my finger itch lately, to my dismay. what the frakk? huh? driving me cwaaazy nutsy. gah. i am behind on everything. i have yarns to list, i swear it and i haven’t done spinning or painting or anything that wasn’t just pissing around or doodling in weeks. shameful. after my mom was in town, we were on vacation, i didn’t have my beloved mac, i am too um..frakked to use a non-mac and do anything with it, so i am behind on every damn thing. all of it. shameful.

so, how many cool boys do you know that do fine arty things, sew, make yarn, make short flims, dance, you name it…how many? tell me? well! this cool boy does! i think he may have thought i was mocking him…au contraire! you make crazy knitted things? with your own handspun yarn? and you made your shirt? badass! my description of badass. instant friends. just add hot water. hee.

also, i little while ago, i got emailed that i was in indie fixx but i am not sure if i told ya or not. so, i was. cool? new to me, on account of my memory is that of a goldfish. got it? gah!

so today, one of my mom’s old neighbors called me out of the blue and we talked forever, i love that woman, she is a massage lady, i wish i could afford to get one. every. hour. did i say that out loud? anyway, she is from the andes when she was a kid, and had no idea i did fiber stuff and got all excited and told me that her granny and relatives would walk around with their drop spindles and spin yarn as thing as a hair and weave amazing things and she knows how to knit and crochet and all manner of crafty stuff. anyway, i told her i would give her a spinning lesson, and she said she wanted to try out something on me. i love talking to her, she is such a kind person.

so after dinner (we put some organic chix on the grill-yay for non poisoned food we can find around here! yay!) and i whipped up the spicy coleslaw that jake goes nuts and eats by the gallon, if he could, we went for a walk around the neighborhood and attempted to take peeps. she made it half a block before she started to get alarmed that she was too far away from the house. she even forgot that there was grass to eat! so we took her back home. it may be better just to keep her on a leash in the backyard when i am back there.

speaking of peeps, she is peeping pink again. i know it could be the food, but it was darker than it had been. and again, we had run out of the new food and used a fancy organic food that may have had even more of that in it, the food was very dark, so it probably did, but still, i am a bit worried. the other cats pee in the litter box like they are supposed to, so i don’t know what color their pee is. also, peeps has pooped on the bathmat two days in a row, which she doesn’t do unless something is up. so i think she is going to have to go to the vet. sigh. i will keep you posted.

one other thing…you know i always have strange dreams, usually nightmares…last night, i had this nightmare dreamed that jake and i moved into this crazy giant house in a new town that we had bought from ZEEPO! he had left behind all kinds of strange stuff, like a pet parrot that wouldn’t come near me and an orange cat that i couldn’t get near either. the town was scary, and people wanted to kill us and eric stolz was in it. strange. who knows? not me.

okay, i heart a scuffle downstairs that sounded like a cat unsuccessfully climbing the new sheers, so i best go see.

oh, i did my first amiguri. i used a japanese pattern and figured it out myself despite my fear of charts. i got tired of the original pattern, the cute cat that everyone does, it is a free pattern, and did my own crazy lumpy ugly one. i will post pics tomorrow. don’t get too excited. he is a bit ugly. everything came out huge even though i only used sportweight cotton yarn and teeny hook. what size do you guys use? huh?

the weather is amazing here. unfortunately, our ghetto section of the neighborhood has rude people that at 1 am are screaming back and forth, or the scary lady from the upstairs appt across the street and sits outside with her radio blasting old crummy music and hoping to wake someone up how will come and hang out with her so she can rant about crazy things that i hope are not true. she also asks for rides. not me. but everyone else. she is one of the drunks that say they “can’t work” because they are disabled. actually, they just drink. sigh. pray that she is drunk and asleep. okay? for me? even still, this weather is amazing. amazing. lurve. mmmm. berries.

mwah.
n.

purrrrrrrrr…

Thursday, March 22nd, 2007

first, let me just say that for some reason, i don’t get an email to tell me that anyone has left a comment on the blog. it is really odd. at first, i thought i was getting no comments (although it is true that i am not getting nearly as many as i used to, which is a bit odd…) and then i realized sometimes is says 0 comments, and there are some, or it just doesn’t alert me. dunno what to do about that, though.

here is sedgewick, the baby owl love creature from lookwhaticando.etsy.com that i got for my niece’s 4th birfday. she loved him and slept with him and her bunny and pulled the felt back to expose the whole eyeball for when he is “awake”. happy birfday sweet girl!
sedgewick the love owl creature i want to get one , too. when i have some cash…okay, any cash at all…i will get myself one, maybe a bunny. they are soooo cute.

here are some journal pages for you to check out…some kitty faces…the natural fallback when i have nothing else to draw…
journal
there are some other journal pages on flickr if you feel like seeing my scribblings…

kahlo has been trying to get a job as my intern (i think she go the idea from you, shannon!) but all she really wants to do is lay on yarn and eat it, so i keep it in my studio…
my little intern what were we winding up?
bunny foo 2
bunny foo foo yarns and melange yarns, which are the bunny ones, with more crazy stuff thrown in, but no bunnies. i have a few skeins availabe which will be listed to-morrow, so let me know if you want one. i have some other fun ones coming, too!

otherwises, not much. i have been super tired lately, having horrible horrible nightmares, as always, but really scary ones. they are like horror movies, but i am in it.

off topic, i am watching supernatural, a surprisingly cool show and they have all sorts of good music on it, including mark lanegan one of our household’s all-time faves. really fantastic.

barbe and i are planning to do another podcast on saturday. she found a conference calling thingy that we can use, and i have not tried to figure out how to do anything fancy like i promised i would. bad bad me. sigh. i have done close to nothing this week, it seems like. although, i guess that isn’t really the case.

i am zoning out, so i am going to go and do some drawering, etc, etc.

warm fuzzies
n.

bzzzzzzzzzzzzzz…

Wednesday, March 14th, 2007

welp, here i am! i have been extra exhausted and migraineful when not so, and needed to get work done so i took my “pep” pill that my doctor gave me for such times. it is odd because when it wears off, it is so drastic, like a battery going dead…dead. so yesterday, i took a half, and about 4 hours later, it wore off. i was falling asleep around 5p and jake said i should take the other half so i wouldn’t fall asleep and wake up when he was sleeping, so i did and then was hyper like a maniac when he was trying to fall asleep and clearly annoying the crap out of him. i rarely can tell i am annoying him. when i take them, i am able to get so much done, i feel sort of winded, like i have been running (not that i really know what running would feel like) but i feel hyper at the same time. if i didn’t have the lupus and chronic fatigue, etc, etc, i wonder what i would be like? it is silly to really bother thinking about it, but i think i am fairly productive, all things considered, and i wonder if i would be manic and uber productive. who knows? not i. anyway, i got several mixed media pieces done which i really like a lot…wanna see?
this one is “come see”
come see
this one is “jump”
what now?
and “what now?”
what now?
and “march 5, 1974″
march 5, 1974
the little journal page is from a gardening journal i got at an auction that only has a few pages per year, at the beginning of spring until the end of summer saying the temperature, what is coming up and when and little clippings from the newspaper, mostly about gardening and gardening clubs. it is a bit odd. i have 3 more collages in the works. i overdid it a bit today, worked about 9 hours straight through which is a lot for me. i have had either a headache or bad nausea all day but don’t want to take my nausea meds because it makes me sleeeeeepy. i may just take it soon. gah! barf!

i printed out my shipping stuff which took FOREVER, it was a lot of packages, but i had other things that i had to handwrite that i need to mail off to-morrow. i had someone send me all of her weaving threads and stuff she didn’t need anymore that i was supposed to send some stuff, except that i can’t find her address (i saved the box for the label, but i can’t find it. anywhere.) i then searched through 2 of my email accounts and couldn’t find anything there and went onto knitter’s review forum where i met her, i think, and the conversation was gone, so i don’t have any idea how to even email her. i don’t remember what her username was. grrrr. i left a couple of posts and hopefully someone if not her will read it and contact her or me. i feel like a jerk. i actually almost sent the package to the wrong person. it is loaded full of good stuff that i know she will want, but…sigh. disorganization does have a price. i write everything down, but can’t remember where i wrote it. i couldn’t find any of my pencil sharpeners and after tearing the place up, i found it in my desk drawer. smart, eh? i do that a lot, put things in the place they should go, and then am not sure where i put it. sigh. i annoy myself sometimes. imagine how poor jake feels.

the studio is an utter pigsty and i need to clean it up after i get the last batch of orders out. it is so messy that i can barely move in there. i need to clean out my closet because i can store all of my fiber and things that are for sale on the shelves, so i have room for supplies i use on the studio shelves.

what else? one of my best clients sent me all of her yarn and fabric scraps plus a zillion of the little jewelry packs that had the bunny beads in them. i am soooo excited. once i get my errands done to-morrow and the cleaning up done, i hope to do some bunny yarns. she is the beeeeest! you know who you are lady!

i had a crazy nightmare the other night where a got caught in the middle of two gangs and they put everyone on their knees and told us to close our eyes and were cutting everyone in half vertically with a big piece of sheet metal. i couldn’t decide whether to keep my eyes closed or not. i didn’t want to make it easy for them…right as they were about to wack me, jake woke me up. there was actually a lot more to the nightmare, but a lot of it didn’t make any sense once i woke up. it did involve a sleezy hotel room that barbe booked for jake and i for our anniversary or something as a gag and we stayed there because we felt like we should, but it was super creepy and dirty and the only thing you could watch on tv was dirty movies. old ones. it has always bugged me that i only have creepy nightmares, never dreams. it seems like a reflection of my soul and self, that even in my own mind, i don’t get to be dazzling and successful. sigh.

a thunderstorm is starting, so i best get off of the computer. i love the rain!
mwah!
n.

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