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that said, i listed some amigurumi birds, a bunch of knits and some yarn. i am planning to list more to-morrow.

i have actually had a productive week and it makes me feel like a real person! weeeeeeeee. i know i say it all the time, but if i had normal energy, i would be dangerous. i tend to avoid getting involved in things that require firm plans. i am paranoid that i will be sick when i need to be doing, making, etc. it bums me out. there are so many things i would love to do, but i know that you can’t ditch out on things. when i have a few days of feeling good, i get all excited, i think maybe i am okay now. maybe i just thought i was sick. and then the anvil drops on my head, and i remember. so i guess the trick is to use every moment that i have, and to be in that moment as much as i can. when i feel crummy, i try to work on projects in bed. sometimes i feel to crummy to do anything. i don’t go online. i don’t talk on the phone. i don’t do anything. thankfully, it is only a few days a month that i am too sick to even knit or crochet. making things helps me to feel like i did something of value.

i have gotten mostly caught up with work. i have more to list and i really need to find someone that can fix my website. since the zencart update, i can’t do anything on there at all. if anyone knows someone, let me know. my friend that set it up for me has a real job and a lady and is busy, so i feel bad asking him to try to open up the can of worms. i hope i don’t need to get a new site designed. i need to find someone to do it for me first, really. jeebus. i got poppy pins made, stitchmarkers made (they go in as the freebie with yarn orders), got some yarns spun up, packed up orders. now i just need to get the studio organized and cleaned up, and the bedroom, also. wanna see some of the new stuff i have made? this one is “sam i am”…

i am incredibly sleepy, i haven’t been able to sleep lately, so i best get going. i am literally 2 months behind on blogreading, so please forgive me. i feel bad about it, and the further behind i get, the worse it is. i have lots of crocheted jewelry that needs to be listing and more to come. it is fun, you can use small hooks but not take forever to amek it. and that rocks. i also ordered a few more dye colors and fiber reactive dyes for the bamboo i am dyeing for shannon’s new book. so. i hope to do some dyeing this week if i can.

i smelled the paris hilton fragrance “can-can” and it smells awesome. like candy. actually all of them are not bad. i told jake they should be nice. she has been raised on the best of everything. she should know what smells nice. i may yet get that one, it is so good. and the new escada smells like grapefruit candy. i have their one from last summer and it smells like candy, and i tend to lean towards fruity scents, never floral. most things give me a headache, foody frangrances not so much. blah blah blah.

oh, here is a photo i took of myself getting a migraine. jake thought it was an excellent representation of it. i am not exactly sure why i look like i have on lipstick. hm.tell me what you think…

leave me some comments so i know i didn’t lose ya. oh, tons of new photos on my flickr, so buzz by…okay? i’ve missed you.

MWAH.
n.

man, i had a bad run. the last week or so i have just been feeling like poo. yesterday, worse and today, really bad. i am not exactly sure what the deal was. i did a bit of snooping on a new site i found called www.butyoudontlooksick.com that basically deals with all kinds of things that we deal with…at first, i thought it was just the lady problems that were making me flare up, i guess that is pretty normal in all of the maladies i have, but it got really bad. i had the sweats, the chills, heebie jeebies, i am not sure if i had a bad batch of patches. i ended up taking a shower, sitting down and drying off, getting dressed and back into bed and then basically getting back into the shower. by the 6th time, i took a chill pill (literally) a pain pill, put new patches on and was so exhausted that i sat down in the shower. i am not sure what it was that helped, but by the time i got out, i felt human, was able to watch ugly betty with jake and go online! wha?

i am super behind in getting any work done, getting orders out, returning and checking my email. it is beyond frustrating. i know i can only do what i can do, but it doesn’t change the fact that it drives me crazy. when i can’t even get myself somewhat under control with medications, i really start to freak out. i have been more emotional than i usually am, i am sure due to hormones, but still, when i don’t do anything, not even things i enjoy…don’t read a book, knit, talk on the phone, make something…anything, it just drives me crazy. i don’t wanna whine anymore, i just wanted to vent a bit.

jake is so sweet to me. he keeps asking what he can do, what he can get, what can he make…meanwhile, i haven’t even done a minimum of housework, cooked dinner, scooped litterboxes, nothing. i barely can get out of bed and take a shower. i am too tired to make a cup of coffee. he is just so kind. he never makes me feel guilty. he acts like it is crazy for me to think i should help out around the house, or do anything more than lie in bed all day. i don’t know that i could work as hard as he does, come home and do whatever needs to be done and still be so nice and sweet. i don’t think i could. i love you jakie. you is the best. you my flowa.

okay, gotta check some emails. to-morrow, as jake always says, i will feel better.

mwah!
n.

boy. i have been too exhausted to do anything. i haven’t checked emails. i haven’t updated the site. i haven’t taken the zillions of photos that i need to take, i haven’t done…anything whatsoever. and we all know how much i love getting nothing at all done. i have had a bunch of days that i couldn’t get out of bed, or got up, took a shower and that was all i could manage. it has been not so fun. so that is where i have been. i have severe guilt about not blogging, and i also have severe guilt about just posting my bitching and moaning and nothing fun for you all to look at. i guess i am a bit of a people pleaser that way. i feel like if i don’t have anything to show you, you won’t come over to my bloggy. i have had a few friends that let me know that my maladies got on their nerves and inconvenienced them, and as angry as it made me at the time, i guess i realize that it hurt my feelings and my brain rerouted it as anger at the time. i hate ditching out at the last minute. i hate it so much that i don’t make plans much anymore.

today, i felt a bit better. i cleaned up my studio. we got a new vacuum cleaner that actually picks stuff up! imagine that! our old one just spit stuff out and caused my asthma and allergies to go nutso, so it wasn’t cracked out so often. this new one has a scented filter! how cool is that? so, you wanna see some sick photos of how fiber and dust covered my studio was? this is not for the feint of heart.

this is the point that i had to empty it, about 2 minutes in…

i know. shameful and gross. grody. but kinda cool. like popping a super gross big zit. and…taddaaaa! clean! i even cracked out the brush attachment and dusted the electronics and everything in there. clean!


anyone want to spin up this mess? ew.

i have a bunch of new amigurumi on my flickr. not all have their info added yet, and they will all be for sale, let me know if you want dibs on one.

also, i made this strange little crocheted peak, which jake thought was a penis, and while i know it looks like one, i plan to make more of them to stand in a cluster together. dunno why. a giant one would be awesome. it really would. in the same vein, i think that a tree made similarly would be amazing.

all week i have had strange nightmares. in one, jake left me for reasons he wouldn’t say and became a monk. i couldn’t get to him to even try to talk. this is super not like him. so. in another, this hippy dude had taken all of my spinning fiber and attempted to get “hemp oil” out of it. probably 50 lbs of really nice fiber. i was pissed. why would you get hemp oil out of animal fiber? hmmm.

off to answer emails.
i missed you all and appreciated your interest and concern. it really means a lot to me. barbe and katrina are some incredibly kind broads. love ya guys!
n.