luxe

we hung out with butter and his new girlfriend on friday, and i was really glad that she was really nice and intelligent. i tend to not do so well meeting girlfriends. let’s leave it at that. i think this one went fairly well.

i woke up saturday and was just exhausted. i tried to push myself to do work anyway, i did 3 bobbins of singles on the electric, strung a million flowers and pompoms for plying and then pushed myself to go in the studio and finish a custom order yarn, and literally by the end of the bobbin, my legs were cramped and i had to push to finish it up. i was incredibly frustrated with myself, but that was it. i did what i could. i was supposed to pack orders, but i was out of the tyvek envelopes i use, or the flat rate boxes, all i have is a big one or a really small one. so i couldn’t do orders, which was fine, because i was too tired to do it, really. so jake got groceries. and made dinner. he is a sweet boy. anytime i get exhausted like that, i get depressed about things. not about being sick, but just other things. i decided that i would like to have some people over for a tea and knitting or crafting, spinning lesson if you fancy (i have 2 manual wheels and an electric and i love teaching.) so any of you that live nearby, let me know and we can start organizing.

today, i feel a bit better, although i didn’t sleep well and had freaky dreams about a cupboard in my mom’s house that has the candy in it, and i was looking for peppermint crisps, which is an awesome south african candy that is thin shards of peppermint in chocolate. i love mint and chocolate, anyway, i opened a box up and live crabs came out. and then i started freaking out trying to get them into the box they came out of. it was creepy. anyone know what the hell that meant? maybe it means that if you try to take your mom’s foreign chocolate stash, you may get crabs? and my family never eats seafood, only fish. and my mom rarely cooked fish either because she thought it stunk. although when we cook fresh fish, it doesn’t. but anyway. we never had stuff like that.

on best week ever they were saying that jennifer hudson from dream girls is the girl you want to just be friends with because she is not “hot” like beyonce, and said that about other people that are gorgeous, but regular sized women, and i got so furious. has anyone noticed that most models are not actually…pretty? skinny? yes. the face? not so important. similarly with many actresses and other stars. they are considered “hot” or “sexy” even if they are not actually terribly attractive. thin…yes, that is all that matters. talented? that doesn’t really matter either. and then, if you are too thin, which is the difference between the olsen twin that is 100 lbs, and the one that is 90 lbs…well, then, you are gross. let me go on to say that in college, i got chubby. after college, i got even chubbier. i went on the atkins diet and literally lost my taste for food. i was going through some bad stuff, and i think it was the only thing i could control, and control, i did. i found that once you totally cut out any carbs or sugars, you don’t want them. nothing tempts you. i have never had a great appetite. if it isn’t really good, i won’t eat it. and i don’t eat much, i pick. somehow, i am still chubby. anyway, i got skinnier than i have ever been, i am short and have a small frame (about 5’2) and i got down to a bit more than 100 lbs, a size 2 or 4. i loved it. i felt awesome. and guys went nuts over me. i remembered the same guys that didn’t give me a second glance and anyone that gave me that vibe, i told to screw off. i never forgot it. it bothers me so much that i am critical of other people’s bodies. my gran and mom are, as well. and it just sucks. i look at the fashion models with their creepy 11 year old boy bodies, and i wonder how that has become the ideal. and don’t get me wrong, for the people who are naturally skinny, they have their own kind of beauty that does not add or take away from anyone else’s, but that is not the same as people starving themselves because the media has so much to say about anyone that is not super thin that they develop issues. anyway. it really upset me to see the incredibly ugly comedians on best week ever making those kinds of comments about women that were in fact drop dead gorgeous. i imagine that when they look in the mirror they are the new 007? or look like a sesame street character.

barbe and i are hoping to do a podcast this week. we are thinking that we will make it shorter…what do you guys think of that? was it too long? be honest. we are new at this.

we are going to check out new mattresses today. ours is beat and we are crippled when we wake up or turn over. anyone who has gotten a really good mattress recently, leave a comment and let me know what you got and what you thought of it. i am excited! it has been far too long.

i should be updating luxe.etsy.com later today, proably around 6p, so check in, okay? i didn’t get a chance to do more batts, but there are some gorgeous targhee ones still available, plus the henny penny ones, which are crazy carded with lots of fun stuff in there. i have loads of fiber dyed up for new batts, plus i just got in a bunch of locks to dye that will be available, probably by the ounce. i have had some issues with my dyes being really pastelly, so i think the dye batches may be too old. although, i will use em up anyway, and just not plan for them to be bright. they still come out really pretty. i am a color junkie, so i am pretty open to whatever comes out…

i have been working on some embroideries of drawings i have done, of the strange plants i was drawing a while ago. i want to do some mixed media pieces with similar drawings. i really adore them. i like the feather ones, too. i know i posted them before, i but i will post em again for any new peeps….

i really enjoy the repetition of embroidery my drawings, although i am now realizing from starting some of them that i need to enlarge them. i do them on vintage linens. i am never sure how to frame the, although, it might be fine just in a plain frame under glass. suggestions? most all of the embroideries are on vintage linens with lacy edges, so i can’t just stretch it, you know? i would prefer not to pay 200 bucks to have it framed pro, either.

oh, for some reason, on my yahoo account, i have been getting penis enlargement/viagra and the like/local horny slut spams. the same ones everyday but from a different fake name. anyone else have this problem? my penis really is big enough.

this morning i watched a movie called duma about a boy and a cheetah that was really a sweet movie. it would be suitable for kids, and for catlovers. and has a happy ending. cheetah gets a lady cheetah.

okay, off i go.
xo
n.